duh
so yeah... i'm an ass sometimes.... last night i wrote the stupidest e-mail i've probably ever written... or close to it i'm sure.... not sure exactly what i was thinking.... although i knew i shouldn't have sent it last night... but i did anyway.... i just re-read it... good lord... i feel like such a dope... i'm always getting ahead of myself.... sticking my foot in my mouth...
i'm not sure if i have some kind of psychological issue that causes me to be a complete idiot when i connect with someone on an intellectual level... i mean i sounded like some kind of freak.... if i got an e-mail like that from someone in the same circumstance.... i'd probably be like... wtf? i don't even know you....
i'm gonna have inner trust issues if i don't already... i let my emotions get the better of me.... i hate when i do that... maybe another reason why i am normally pretty closed off emotionally.... but shit, when that door opens... watch out for the rushing waters....
tomorrow night i'm going to see AR... and saturday night... tomorrow night is special for me though... shan has confirmed that she is going to come in for the show.... that reminds me i need to print out the train schedule... i can't wait to see her.... it's gonna be so cool! woohoo! i guess we probably won't have much of a chance to chat... but we shall see.... it's gonna rock.... at the same time i'm a little nervous... i always get nervous before shows... i'm a freak like that... peace and love peace and love.... that's all.... feel the AR vibe... driving to Rhode Island again is gonna kill me i think.... this will be the third saturday in a row involving a 200+ mile drive... and RI is up and back... zzzzzzzz, i'm tired just thinking about it....
as of yesterday it was possible that 10:30ish would be a good time for a chat.... can't help but wonder if that will occur... or if it won't... i feel like writing something... creatively.... but i'm not quite there just yet....
i'm not sure if i have some kind of psychological issue that causes me to be a complete idiot when i connect with someone on an intellectual level... i mean i sounded like some kind of freak.... if i got an e-mail like that from someone in the same circumstance.... i'd probably be like... wtf? i don't even know you....
i'm gonna have inner trust issues if i don't already... i let my emotions get the better of me.... i hate when i do that... maybe another reason why i am normally pretty closed off emotionally.... but shit, when that door opens... watch out for the rushing waters....
tomorrow night i'm going to see AR... and saturday night... tomorrow night is special for me though... shan has confirmed that she is going to come in for the show.... that reminds me i need to print out the train schedule... i can't wait to see her.... it's gonna be so cool! woohoo! i guess we probably won't have much of a chance to chat... but we shall see.... it's gonna rock.... at the same time i'm a little nervous... i always get nervous before shows... i'm a freak like that... peace and love peace and love.... that's all.... feel the AR vibe... driving to Rhode Island again is gonna kill me i think.... this will be the third saturday in a row involving a 200+ mile drive... and RI is up and back... zzzzzzzz, i'm tired just thinking about it....
as of yesterday it was possible that 10:30ish would be a good time for a chat.... can't help but wonder if that will occur... or if it won't... i feel like writing something... creatively.... but i'm not quite there just yet....