a lonely walk...
we went to the boardwalk today, and i wanted u to be there w/ me so bad...thats the first time in a while i realy had a strong feeling of needing you, not a confusing wondering wut it would be like if you were there, but a real longing...and i think even though its hard, i need to find somone new, start living again for me, make me hapy, but the question is who am i, who would i be living for, i havent done anything for me in so long, i couldnt even begin to know how. And i want so bad to find someone new, someone to make me hapy if only for a little while, but i dont know how to do that either, i turn everyone a way, and dont even realize im doing it, i make things seem so bad, and they realy arent i need to let myself be hapy, its not anyone else, it me...and the hardest person to fight is yourself.