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Why do I always have to get depressed and thoughtful, but bouncy and hyper when I get my period >.< It's a lousy combination and it causes me much pain :/
Been watching my Placebo dvd <3
So many good memories. I've started reading old LJ entries again too. Oh my.. next Saturday will mark 1 year since the concert.
I really can't believe how much I love Christian, and how much some of my thoughts keeps hurting me because I won't let them go away even though they are pointless and silly. My imagination has always been uncontrollable. I don't usually think about it. Only when I feel sad or sorry for myself. And I almost always cry >_<
It felt comforting crying when he held me though. So much better than when I'm alone. I still didn't manage to tell him about all my silly thoughts. I don't know why I'm scared to talk about things. I've always been the shy one. I hate talking. I don't know what to do with myself when I meet new people. I go clumsy, silent and weird. And I remember every single little mistake I make when I'm like that. And it hurts. It hurts more to be reminded of mistakes I've made by somebody else after I've made them. Even though they tell you it was sort of cutesey or whatever. It just.. hurts.
I wish I could look inside his head and reveal all the secrets. That way I would be able to have sweet dreams for the rest of my life.
Do I hate her, or myself for thinking that I should?
>_< SO CONFUSED! Have to tell him.. tonight.
Been watching my Placebo dvd <3
So many good memories. I've started reading old LJ entries again too. Oh my.. next Saturday will mark 1 year since the concert.
I really can't believe how much I love Christian, and how much some of my thoughts keeps hurting me because I won't let them go away even though they are pointless and silly. My imagination has always been uncontrollable. I don't usually think about it. Only when I feel sad or sorry for myself. And I almost always cry >_<
It felt comforting crying when he held me though. So much better than when I'm alone. I still didn't manage to tell him about all my silly thoughts. I don't know why I'm scared to talk about things. I've always been the shy one. I hate talking. I don't know what to do with myself when I meet new people. I go clumsy, silent and weird. And I remember every single little mistake I make when I'm like that. And it hurts. It hurts more to be reminded of mistakes I've made by somebody else after I've made them. Even though they tell you it was sort of cutesey or whatever. It just.. hurts.
I wish I could look inside his head and reveal all the secrets. That way I would be able to have sweet dreams for the rest of my life.
Do I hate her, or myself for thinking that I should?
>_< SO CONFUSED! Have to tell him.. tonight.