Its me, karina, i have a few things to tell u. First of all i never said that the college lifestyle wasnt for me, dont put words in my mouth. I said that the lifestyle we were living wasnt for me so dont get confused. Second of all, if u were my friend and u loved me so much and w.e. u would support me, but since u r so selfish and u always want things your way u cant understand it. I didnt pretend u too anyways since u r so inmature, n jackie is so right, the one that needs to grow up is you, not her. U havent realized a lot of shit yet, i just hope u do soon. And just everything shows me your level of maturity, i dont consider myself completely mature n shit but deff more than u dude cuz u need to start thinking. And dont worry, i dont want to have anything to do with u neither, just cuz the way u acted.
if you could only live ONE day of the past week ive been through, or see the shit other people have to go through- you would never say what you just said. but then again, you dont know..so you woudlnt know not to say that. you were the closest person to me, and then you call me and say ali i have to tell u that im not coming to tampa nexxt year bc you didnt like the lifestyle we were living? indirectly you are saying that chanell and I are not living good lives that have a potential future. we grew up differently from you, which is fine. you came into college and you became friends w/ me, AND moved in w/ me, KNOWING how i do. when y ou are in tampa you are strong willed person with a good head on y our shoulders and you know what you want and youll get it. but when you go home, your parents and friends who have a complete difff.lifestyle then you,chanell, or any of us have in tampa, then you start to doubt yourself. and thats not the karina i knew. ive felt sick and even did get sick the past few days..ever since you told me..my mom
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Ok. U still don’t understand though ali, I never meant to hurt you cuz if anything u were the last person I wanna hurt cuz I do care about you. This decision was made by me, karina, no else had anything to do with it, not even my friends from here, not my family, no one, it was all me, I swear cuz u know I don’t listen to anyone but me. U know we werent living good lifes, I dunno about u or chanell, but for me, that is not life. That’s is not what I want it life, I dunno if that’s what u want or if it has a potential future ali but for me it doesn’t have a potential future. And yeah I moved in with you knowing how u do cuz I accepted u the way u r cuz I don’t judge, I might not agree, but I don’t judge, u know what u want, u do what u want, I can only be there to give u advice. Like u said, when I came to tampa I WAS a strong willed person with a good head on my shoulders, and that’s exactly who I am, I know what I want now, I didn’t before, cuz I dunno I was just experiencing new things which I did learn from them, a lot. I learn a
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I like the way i live my life. the things i do each and everyday that are crazy or what not are the things that make me smile and have fun. i also have things going for me becaues i go to school and someday will have something. your trying to grow up and justify yourself way too quickly. theres nothing to be talked about and t heres nothing i need to change. I DID do something with my life this past year at school- i met you and a whole bunch of other ppl i had a blast w/..plus i got some credits done and am STARTING my life. it doesnt have to be perfect now. i mean what do you think life is supposed to be? what society expects it to be? working an 8am-5pm shift everyday? being a good person everday to those same people who will DICK you the fuck over one day? ..maybe thats you. but not me. As long as I have something going for me, im going to have as much fun as possible. we just have different views on life..its not that i dont understand you,i do.i just dont want to live the way you are starting to be. it was awesome being "buddy
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oh and i just chilled n smoked a bowl so i can be calm and say this one final thing. your decision is your decision, im not trying to change it. i just want to say that you keep saying "this is how i was..im not me when im in tampa..this is how i am.." i think you are confused and dont really know where you even stand with yourself. who are you? what are your plans? because I know that I sure as hell want to be settled down,working, be in love,have things i want..etc...But as of now, your just learning what you really do want and who you are and what you want to be or do for yourself. and in between all this you have to deal with shit and go through shit, whether its good for y ou or not as a person.and in our case ,yeah, there was a hella lot of shit we had to ddeal with or sitll have to deal w/ but all together i feel like i know myself better. and i know you pretty damn well, and i just think that you deffinately have a good mentality and you can go on your own and be on y our own for sure, but theres just way too much mor you
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Re: one last thing
anonymous
May 19 2005, 23:21:08 UTC
ok so u guys are misunderstanding everything i said, i jsut said that THAT LIFESTYLE doesnt work for me, i NEVER SAID if you smoke pot u cant be someone or w.e., i just said that me living that lifestyle, i wouldnt accomplish too much, thats me. I never meant to say that ali didnt understand because she is dumb or w.e u r saying i said rachel, so relax, cuz i was never attacking her or doubting her friendship cuz i know ali, and i know who she is and i know what she would do for me, i know that, so dont come and tell me all that shit. I have nothing else to say, and this is the last thing i write on this thing and read this thing cuz i know what i am, i know what i want and if anything, u guys dont know me apparently, i just wanted to make some things clear. i just hope ali u have a good life and i know that u r gonna be fine like u said. And just good luck in anything u do. And thats it. bye bye for ever wit this bullshit.
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