Passing Ruminations...
I passed the state licensing exam this morning, so I am now officially an insurance producer (agent) in the Commonwealth of Massachusetts. It was the final hurdle I needed to surmount to ensure my position at MetLife (licensing must be effected within the first ninety days of employment, or you're out). It is certainly a relief to get this piece of it out of the way - now on with my career.
Of course, I'm sure David would be looking somewhat askance at me, since I used to rail constantly against insurance companies (especially those that provide health insurance), prattling on angrily about how it seems wrong to leave such important decisions to a motley crew who are always going to be interested in the bottom line and nothing more, and yet here I am, now employed by one of the biggies. This new job would seem to signal the start of a new life, a chance to reinvent myself from the ground up. And yet the shadow appears to have been cast, inexorably and with a grim permanence, an unalterable scorch mark. I am where I am because of the choices I have made in my life, and yet… my arrival to this day seems filled with aleatoric twists that left me without a sense of "choice" at all. Becoming something new would take too much effort. It makes me sleepy even to consider it.
Of course, I'm sure David would be looking somewhat askance at me, since I used to rail constantly against insurance companies (especially those that provide health insurance), prattling on angrily about how it seems wrong to leave such important decisions to a motley crew who are always going to be interested in the bottom line and nothing more, and yet here I am, now employed by one of the biggies. This new job would seem to signal the start of a new life, a chance to reinvent myself from the ground up. And yet the shadow appears to have been cast, inexorably and with a grim permanence, an unalterable scorch mark. I am where I am because of the choices I have made in my life, and yet… my arrival to this day seems filled with aleatoric twists that left me without a sense of "choice" at all. Becoming something new would take too much effort. It makes me sleepy even to consider it.