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Feb 10, 2008 20:12

 now i come to feel absolutely, entirely, and wholly filthy ( Read more... )

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electrikxdance February 11 2008, 02:55:38 UTC
I had to refrain from saying anything. Not because I feel as though I shouldn't but because I knew I couldn't connect with those people. Which tore my heart apart. :/
And it doesn't help that my Sociology class is pushing the same ideas down my throat...
I love you. Hang in there.

Today in church the pastor talked about how God has an eternal love for all of us and He has a definite plan that will never be taken away from those who follow Him. I don't know. It just made me feel better. He loves you. I love you. Don't forget that. He does not see you as filth.

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twilitesunburst February 11 2008, 02:58:38 UTC
please please please please call me back

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electrikxdance February 11 2008, 04:10:19 UTC
the saddest part of talking to you tonight was hearing you feel as though you were taken advantage of.
just remember that God tells us that we shall be persecuted by those who don't understand. but that what He offers us will never be found on this Earth for it is not of man but for him.

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twilitesunburst February 11 2008, 07:15:07 UTC
i am so eternally gratefull to have you as my best friend

i was talking to my mom today, and she said "in the long run maegan, you will have your parents and kathleen" [she failed to mention eamon, which i quickly pounced on]

but its true.
thank you for your friendship, once again.

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graceislove February 11 2008, 03:43:25 UTC
"[maybe i am just weak. maybe this is the way it always is, and always will be. i am so sorry Lord. i feel so filthy in the sight of these men.]"

I hope i did not get lumped in. Please dont tell me i make you feel filthy.

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twilitesunburst February 11 2008, 03:53:31 UTC
not your entirety
not who you are

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graceislove February 11 2008, 04:10:14 UTC
then what?

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electrikxdance February 11 2008, 04:15:27 UTC
Daniel,
Please please please open your heart.
I'm not going to say anything on your journal because I know my words will not be taken seriously and will be turned against me. Stop feeding this fire. I love you and hate to see this seeping into your head. I am on the verge of tears reading that these boys believe that I being a Christian am a homophobic, racist who's head is filled with false statements and childhood dreams.

God has called me to LOVE this world, to share His word, and the LOVE Him. But how can I with such close mindedness? Just like Maegan it makes me feel abused and worthless.

I don't even know what else to say.

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e_burke February 11 2008, 04:04:26 UTC
I'm sorry babe.

It's nasty work, learning better. At least we did this one together.

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electrikxdance February 11 2008, 04:16:46 UTC
Eamon,
I would like to tell you that I know you have tried for sometime now to speak calmly about everything. I know this is insanely hard. But just remember that God has predestined a path for you and His love and His promises can never be taken away not matter who throws rocks at you.

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e_burke February 11 2008, 04:18:43 UTC
Thanks. I did remember today at Church service...giving God some credit and appreciation was like a reset button on my own stupid.

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