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now i come to feel absolutely, entirely, and wholly filthy
my kindness seems to have been misplaced...
no, not misplaced, but used.
it seems that me trying to give someone respect has made me week, drained, unsophisticated, and a twist of a knife in my own boyfriends side...
everytime he says "your girlfriend on the other hand, was quite kind"
it makes my stomach churn...
i know what he means, or means to mean
"hey, just be chill like your girlfriend, this is uncalled for"
but i feel like there is something he is not saying...
this is too much.
i hope you all are proud of yourselves.
[maybe i am just weak. maybe this is the way it always is, and always will be. i am so sorry Lord. i feel so filthy in the sight of these men.]
peace and love
mae
my kindness seems to have been misplaced...
no, not misplaced, but used.
it seems that me trying to give someone respect has made me week, drained, unsophisticated, and a twist of a knife in my own boyfriends side...
everytime he says "your girlfriend on the other hand, was quite kind"
it makes my stomach churn...
i know what he means, or means to mean
"hey, just be chill like your girlfriend, this is uncalled for"
but i feel like there is something he is not saying...
this is too much.
i hope you all are proud of yourselves.
[maybe i am just weak. maybe this is the way it always is, and always will be. i am so sorry Lord. i feel so filthy in the sight of these men.]
peace and love
mae