I can't even listen to some of my favorite songs anymore, especially songs that I loved while season 1 was airing. Because our talented fans made such great vids from these songs, everytime I hear them now I think of season 1 and my heart breaks for something that was in my life and was great but now have turned bad. I've so much of my life in the ( Read more... )

My best friend died in a car accident last night. He actually was in an accident the night before, was in intensive care, and then died last night. I am in a funk of guity confusion that I can't pull myself out of. Why do I feel guity? I don't know (and for other reasons I just can't bring myself to talk about right now) but I keep feeling as if ( Read more... )