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OH! MY! GOD!
The diver just asked me out on a date... We haven't even talked. Just sent text messages a couple of times. I don't even remmeber what he looked like...I'm just so sure that he wasn't my type whatsoever. He is OLD (probably at least 35 ;) and short and... Oh God!
I'm so nervous I can't think straight.
Other news? My friend made a pass on the kid. That's the kind of friends I have... Luckily she also made a pass on someone else and went home with him. Which meant I had to comfort the kid cos he is kind of clueless and has no concept of how much it hurts me when he tells me things like that... We have known each other for 4 months and during that time we have spent almost every day together, we have had sex every now and then and he has shared 3 persons he is in love with. Cos yeah I want to know.... NOT!
Anyway we had sex last night and afterwards I just didn't want to stay. I didn't want to lie there staring at the roof thinking about how wrong it feels inside when he leaves the bed and sleeps on the couch. I cried on the floor in his bathroom. I felt so used and disgusting. I'm pathetic really... So I went home at 3 in the morning. We'll see what that comes to. I wanted to break all of it but I didn't know what to say.