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The days of my life are starting to be boringly similar...
I'm tired cos I had sex with the kid last night. I have too much to do at work and thus get nothing done instead. I feel fat and ugly.
I have the date tonight. With the diver you know. I just realised I have never been on an actual date like this before. I have dated people I have met on the internet but through my entire life noone has actually asked me out... Though I guess it could be blamed on more than 10 years of relationships... Noone asks a taken woman out right? So this will be my first date with someone who actually asked me out. Great :) I hope I get laid ;)
This is a weird issue with the kid...He is happy for me. I hate that he is :o) Can't he just be a little jealous? Nah he just tells me he wants me to be happy and if I meet someone he is happy for me. We even discussed the possibility of me having sex with this guy and I guess that is what landed us in bed in the first place. So apparently he even likes the thought of me in bed with someone else... I guess it's safe to say he isn't in love with me. I think it might be good as well if I find someone else but the bad thing is that my not so logical mind thinks that if I fall in love with someone else it will be so much easier for me to be with the kid...but I think that neither him or me have realised the obvious fact that if I do indeed fall in love with someone else we will lose each other. There is no way this relationship can go on.
Please keep all fingers and toes crossed for me...Oh God this is one weird day...