I can't wait for this to be over
I hate this feeling, it always happens when he leaves, I feel empty, I can't help but moap around.. thats all I do actually when he isnt here all I do is lay around my house... or drag myself to work.... All i think about is "when am I going to see him again" or "How long 'till he comes back" I hate that I can't see him whenever I want. Its not fair the one person I want to be around that doesn't annoy me in any way, doen't even live here... Why is it that once I'm happy there has to be something there always to fuck me up... maybe this is some kind of test like, if we could stay together through this distance bullshit we are deff going to make it.... I don't know what it is but i really can't wait for it to be over... today we said goodbye, i went to work... and when i got home i felt so shitty i fell asleep in my uniform and i woke up and just broke down crying... i feel terrible i dont want to move... i HATE thisssss.... I cant wait for may when he moves back.... I don't care if he drives me crazy once he moves back but I'd rather have him here, than not having him around at all...