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Recently put new works up on Vitta Vera! Coupla teasers ^^
Don't get a lot of wigs sent these days, I notice :P
In other news, the cat house dream's definitely over :/
J and C suggested I write an appeal letter to P and I did (not so much because I thought it would do anything, but so I could tell myself I made every effort despite the anxiety it caused), and she told me in the nicest terms possible that she wanted as much money as she could get, which is of course her right! Back to square one and scam listing after scam listing -_- It wasn't all a bust, I discovered some real good people through it. Painting does help keep the mind focused away from all that, though, usually. There can be stressors there, but it's stress I can do something about, that I can finish :) (speaking of which, my wait times are presently short, if anyone here is looking for any work done!).
Most other stuff has fled from my mind at the moment, but this weekend I went to a house party and had very asian chili, but without asian flavors, if one can imagine, interesting stuff - And met some real characters there and had a little bit of fun. I sold my poor unused corset and may or may not blow the money on a playa goods loft sale this weekend (not going to Burning Man myself, too expensive). Am rooting for Jaja and Megz (maybe Virgil and Hailee too) on SYTYCD; no favorites yet on Face Off.
I've been pondering a fancy, that perhaps I should have been a geisha. Or somthing similar - What I'm thinking of is something that doesn't really have a name in modern American terms (although I recall in Mystery Date, from Carla Speed McNeil's Finder series, it was touched upon), but I feel I would do well under patronage connected with personal relationship. In that context, the creative things I do make sense. They may entertain, but not in a commercially viable way; they'll entertain or inspire one person at a time, or the people in that person's sphere. And the other part, the selling of myself, the part that I hate. I much perfer to display myself in my own environment (a la el barrio del artistas) and have would be patrons peruse me and my skills and choose me for them of their own accord, not because I persuaded them with something. Perhaps we must choose each other. With private patrons I may skip the grind (and block) to appeal to as many people as possible.
The patron relationship I picture is not one of servitude, but of nurturing and sharing back and forth what blossoms. Perhaps the patron is the one with the seller's mind, who can bring a return on my gifts, or perhaps I'm compensated wholly by the patron him(or her)self. I'm just imagining this whole patron network of people around the world, perhaps not in the best financial circumstances, supported by someone who loves their work, and thus the work flourishes where otherwise it would crumble under the press of more worldly matters. Perhaps the work is guided by the patron's wishes, perhaps not, whatever works for them both (and I'm not talking about Patreon, or micro-loans - what a mess that turned into - more like a dating site but for art). Doesn't necessarily get physical (though I suppose it doesn't necessarily NOT get physical either). Creativity sugar daddies. Takes it out of a getting-too-creepy-from-power-balance mentor/student thing in college, puts it in a certain other place. Is that odd?