[Mini-series] Our precious diaries (3/3)
Title: Our Precious Diaries
Pairing: SakurAiba
Genre: Romance, angst, POV
Rating: NC-17
Authors: juchi_kazunashi and me
Beta: Our sweet friend xxdaviexx
Disclaimer: We don't own SakurAiba though we really want to...
Summary: Sho and Aiba are writing their diaries. Part III
WARNING! This chapter is totally different than the previous ones! Minors, Please stay away!
juchi_kazunashi --> Sho's POV, me --> Aiba's POV
Both of us were sleeping. I was talking in my sleep then. How did I know that? Masaki told me after I woke up of course! Haha!
He told me that all I was saying was: "Masaki, you are so cute. Let me hug you and kiss your sweet lips."
I felt a huge embarrassment then! I did say that for real!? He told me that he was trying to hold his laugh just because he did not want to wake me up. I got closer to him, but I was kind of confused.
"Masaki." I was kind of shivering. "Is it okay to do this? You cut all ties with that girl already?"
"You talked to her, right, Sho-chan?" He held my hand. "So, I think it is okay now."
"But..." I scratched my head.
"Oh, come on, Sho-chan! You know you want to do it!" He pulled me quickly and strongly toward his lips!
We started to kiss each other [on our lips--> This can be eliminated.], and I started to take off his shirt slowly. I was kind of afraid, but I think that we were finally experiencing our most awaited moment with each other, right?
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Sho-chan’s hands are warm and his touch makes me shiver. I felt his lips on my neck and his fingers on my back. It felt extremely good. I put my hands under his shirt to touch his soft skin. He giggled a bit.
‘Masaki, that tickles!’ - he said straight into my ear and all I could think was that his lips were touching mine. So, I started to kiss him slowly, tasting him with all my might. He surely is yummy… My sweet, yummy Sho-chan!
I really wanted to taste him. I mean TASTE him… So, I started to lick his neck and kept moving down his body with my tongue. I don’t know where I learned these things, or who had I learned them from. Somehow, I just knew what I needed to do and how I should do it. Soon, I traced his chest with my saliva and reached the border of his pants. I could hear his heavy breath, which stimulated me to taste him even more. I slightly pulled down his pants and touched his stomach. He put his hand on mine and asked:
‘Are you sure Masaki? Do you really want to do this?’
‘Yes, Sho… I love you…’
So, I started to lick away... from his navel to his semi-hard member. I covered the last one with my mouth and started to suck it a bit. I was hearing Sho-chan’s quiet moans and that gave me the courage to lick it harder and faster. I was so happy that he liked it! I felt his fingers caressing my hair [while calling my name over and over again] [and he was repeating my name].
I wanted to taste him to the fullest. I added some hand movements and, shortly after that, I finally started to feel something wet in my mouth. Sho was moving his hips and pushing them forward, so I took him deeper into my mouth. He was pulling my hair and it hurt a bit, but I liked it. And, then, he came right into my mouth… I swallowed all of his cum and immediately felt that his body became weaker. He helped to me stand up and held me so tight.
‘I love you Masaki,’ he said right into my ear.
‘I love you too…’ This was the only thing I could say because I was feeling so happy that my eyes became wet. I’m hoping that I was good… I’m hoping that he liked it… I’m hoping that I made him happy…
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This was kind of painful, but I do not mind it as long as we love each other. Both of us were semi-nude. After Masaki had made love to me, I felt like I did not [get] [have] enough. So, I kissed his lips, caressed his hair, and touched his nude body all the way from top to bottom. I was afraid of tickling him, but he told me that it was okay.
Okay! I got really tired of this, though I wanted to but could not complete it! The way Masaki was touching me was painful, so I rested a bit. I was still semi-nude, but I was too tired to put my clothes back on and even cover myself with the bed sheet. I was shivering, not knowing why. [Maybe because is it cold? Or because of the pain?] [Was it the cold? Or, was it the pain?]
Masaki saw me like this and hurriedly covered me with the bed sheet. He was touching my hair slowly.
"Sho-chan, are you okay?" He whispered in my ear. "I am sorry if I hurt you. I love you so much." Then, he kissed my shivering lips.
"I am okay, Masaki." I was still shivering. "Maybe, the room is cold. That is all."
Then, I smiled a bit and fell asleep because I was too tired.
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Sho-chan is lying to me… Something’s wrong; I can feel it. I asked him if I had done something wrong to him, but he denied it. Perhaps, I shouldn’t have done it? I mean, I just went with the flow… I was only doing the things that my mind and heart were telling me to do. I noticed that Sho-chan moves away from me whenever I try to get close to him. Not that far away though... In the end, he still holds me tight. However, I can’t help but think that there’s a side of him that would also like to escape when he’s with me. I want to talk this over with him, but I’m afraid of the result. What if Sho-chan only has negative things to say? What if I hurt him?
Yesterday, I met him in the studio. I was so happy to see him because we hadn’t been able to meet with each other for quite a while. As soon as we entered the dressing room and were left alone, I hugged him and kissed him on the mouth.
‘I missed you, Sho-chan!’ and I smiled. I didn’t know humans could feel SO happy! But, then, he gently pushed me away and sat on a chair.
‘I’m quite busy, Masaki… I have to read this article.’ And, he just took out a newspaper. I was in shock. From that moment on, I was sure that I had done something wrong. He didn’t look at me. The mere thought of having hurt him saddened me to the point of tears running down my face. I really didn’t want to cry, but I couldn’t help it. I looked at him and asked, sniffing:
‘Nee Sho-chan… Tell me… Did I do something wrong?’
‘What are you saying, Masaki!’
‘I know I did… You’ve been pushing me away since that night. If I did something bad, tell me!’
‘But, you didn’t do anything wrong…’ he whispered and covered his eyes. He looked tired or sad. And, just then, I was certain that something was bothering him.
‘Sho-chan… Tell me the truth… What’s going on?’
‘I told you - nothing’s wrong!’ he shouted. SHOUTED!
‘When you decide to tell me the truth, call me. I can’t stand you, pushing me away. Goodbye, Sho-chan!’ - I left the room and slammed the door in his face. It occurred to me that this was the only way to make him tell me the truth.
Sho-chan… Gomenne…
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Masaki kept demanding to know the truth! I WAS really tired. I did not feel anything except that my heart was aching like hell!
"Everything will be okay, so please stop tiring yourself by beating so fast." I put my hand on my chest and patted it softly "Easy, my little fellow inside." .
I cannot hide it from Masaki anymore, or my little poor heart will suffer more from doing so. I brought my cellphone to call him, but I was still confused. Should I tell him or not? I am afraid he’ll get mad at me if I do. I mean, I do love him, but doing that… Oh my God, my head aches, not only my chest!
I was rubbing my head then. I was still thinking about calling him and, eventually, I told myself to do it and called him! Does my heart deserve this pain because I cannot tell him!? I WILL tell him right now!
I dialed his number, but it kept ringing for a long time. Please, Masaki, answer! My heart started to beat even faster when I heard the voice on the other end of the phone.
"Moshimoshi~!" He finally picked up! "Sho-chan?" He said with a soft tone of voice.
"Masaki!" I shouted a bit. "Thank goodness." I felt relieved.
"Easy, Sho-chan. What happened?" He started to get worried. "You sound like you have been chased by someone."
"Masaki, I want to tell you this, but I am afraid of your reaction." My heart started to beat again, so I put my hand on my chest.
"You have been avoiding me, Sho-chan." He was still worried. "Eh? My reaction? What do you mean?" He got that last part a bit later.
"It was… It was…" My heart started to beat faster, so I held my suit's shirt very tightly.
"Sho-chan!!! Why are you panting!?" His voice started to [break] [change to a crying tone]. "Is there something wrong? Do not make me so worried!"
"Masaki!" I was panting when I shouted. "It was… my… first time… making love… to… a… man!" I even tightened the hold on my suit's shirt more when I was still panting.
Oh, gosh! My eyes started to form tears because I was so scared that I felt like I could die! What would Masaki's reaction be? Oh, boy! I hope he will not be disappointed. My poor little heart inside me... I think it has suffered enough.
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I didn’t do anything wrong. I did something NEW. He was nervous because of that! I think he loves me… That’s why he let me do it…
‘Sho-chan,’ I said when he came to my place. ‘It was my first time too! I just… wanted to show you how much I love you…’
‘You have never done this before?!’ He asked with surprise on his face. I love his face the most when he is surprised…
‘No…’
‘So, how did you know what to do?’
‘I didn’t. I just did what my heart was telling me to…’ My face became red. I was looking down on the floor; I didn’t want Sho-chan to see that I was blushing too much. He pulled my chin up and made me look into his eyes. And, I blushed even more, so I just hugged him.
‘I’m sorry…’ I whispered right into his ear.
‘Calm down, Masaki… You didn’t do anything wrong. It was just something new for me, so I was a bit afraid of it… That’s all.’
‘It was new for me too! I just… I don’t know…’ I hugged him, driving him closer to me. He is most important to me. This is what I wanted to show. I told him all of it, and he just patted me on the head.
‘You’re important to me too…’ He said.
But, something bad had already happened too! Others noticed that we were acting pretty strange, and Nino started to joke about it. He said, with certainty, that we surely had done it and were now acting like a couple of kids… Meanie!!
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"Nino, could you please stay away?" I asked him politely.
"Why? I was just stating the truth. You both did it." He had this mean look on his face. "And, who do you think tried to cool down your mind with video games, Sho-chan?" He sounded like he was scolding me.
"Just… stay away, please." I did not know what to say except this.
"As you wish. I will get going." He seemed to be looking down on us. "Hope you two have a 'happy life' with each other." He was making fun of us, but that was the least of the things I could care of.
After Nino had left, I wanted to go back to Masaki. Unfortunately, I felt dizzy and fell down suddenly. Luckily, Masaki rushed to hold me before I ended up falling down on the floor.
"Ma… sa… ki." I was breathing heavily. "I… can… handle it." I held his arms tightly.
I was trying to stand up, but my body was not responding. The image of my body being tightly held by Masaki's hands was the last thing I could see before going unconscious.
"Masaki, I… love… you." That was the last thing I said, and then I went unconscious.
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Don’t cry. Don’t cry! DON’T CRY!!!
My poor Sho-chan collapsed, and I was so worried! They took him to the hospital and, now, I can’t see him because the doctor said that he needs to rest. Oh, I will make sure that nobody disturbs him.
I stayed at the hospital until the visiting hours were over. I hope he will be OK…
A few days later, I was finally given permission to visit Sho. He was lying down on this huge bed, and he looked good. Nevertheless, he was so impatient and wanted to go back to work urgently.
‘Sho-chan, dame! You need to rest!’ I held him down to force him to sit on the bed.
‘But, Masaki, we have work to do!’ He begged me.
‘I was in the hospital for a month, remember? You all encouraged me and that gave me strength. Now, don’t complain and just rest. I’ll leave you alone. Jaa~!’
‘Masaki! Stay.’ He said with that soft tone of voice. ‘Stay for a while, please…’
I wanted to stay, but I was really scared that this could be tiring for him. But, he asked me with those cute puppy eyes, so I couldn’t say no. I sat on a chair, but Sho-chan asked me to sit on the bed, so I did. Suddenly, he hugged me! He was holding me so tight that I could barely breathe.
‘Sho-chan… You will break my ribs…’
‘I’m sorry… I just missed you for so many days!’
‘But, it was just 3 days…’
‘Too long…’ He whispered in my ear and kissed me. At the same time, Jun, Riidaa, and Nino entered the room with flowers. We noticed their presence because Nino said:
‘Gosh, you can stop already! Or, at least, lock the door!!’
But, he was smacked in the head by Jun.
‘Leave them alone!’ He said in his Domyouji fashion. He’s scary this way... Therefore, Nino had no other choice but to apologize to us…
Sho-chan’s leaving the hospital tomorrow. We wanted to throw him a party, but I don’t think this is good idea… Maybe, we should all just greet him and let him rest…
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It was my last day in the hospital. I felt lonely, so I dialed Masaki's number. Why am I calling him? I think he got tired of me with all those demands for him to stay with me. Anyway, I already called him. So, let us see how things will turn out.
"Moshimoshi? Sho-chan?" Masaki replied cheerfully.
"I am sorry for calling you now, but I feel lonely and want you to [be with me] [keep me company]." I asked him. "Are you busy now?"
"Kind of... Just give me one hour and I will come, okay, Sho-chan?" He said with a soft tone of voice. "And, you absolutely do not have to apologize! I love you and love being with you, you know." He said cheerfully.
"Okay, Masaki. I will wait." And, I hung up with a slight smile on my face.
Gosh! This hour of waiting seems [really long] [like never ending torture]! I had nothing else to do, so I turned on the TV to watch some entertainment news after 25 minutes approximately.
They were talking about News ZERO, about the fact that I could not be there today because I was staying here, at the hospital, so there were going to be two other remaining reporters taking over for the time being. I got so worried after hearing this that I wanted to stand up and try to get there as fast as I could. However, every time I try to stand up, I feel a little dizzy.
I had no other choice but to stay on my bed, worrying about that news show. The remaining 30 minutes, however, have passed so fast... mainly because I was still watching TV. Finally, Masaki’s here!
"I hope I am not late, Sho-chan." He smiled at me as soon as he entered the room.
"No, you are not, Masaki!" I was so happy right there, just then. "Though you are a bit... But, it is okay as long as I can see you."
"Thanks, Sho-chan!" And he came to sit beside me.
"Masaki." I started to touch his cheek. "Can you turn off the lights, close the curtains, and lock the door very well?"
"Sho-chan!!! Here and now!?" He got so surprised. "We are still in the hospital!" His eyes widened.
"Does not matter." I was having a serious look on my face.
"Okay then." He was confused.
After Masaki finished doing everything I asked him to do, he sat beside me. I quickly and strongly attacked his lips with mine. He got surprised, but he seemed to like it. When I was kissing his neck, I started to unbutton his shirt. I touched his chest and started to lick it.
However, when I was about to do more than that, we heard a knock on the door. I was frustrated because I could not do what I wanted! Masaki went to open the door after he finished buttoning his shirt up quickly.
Gosh! I so love Masaki! Who is the one spoiling the moment!?
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Somebody knocked on the door when we were having our special moment… Who was that? Gosh, I really didn’t want it to end…
‘Sho-chan… Let’s pretend that no one’s here…’ I whispered.
‘Masaki! This is not our home! We are at a hospital and everyone already knows that I am here!’ He said. He was a bit mad; I don’t know if he was being mad at me or at the person who kept knocking on the door, louder and louder. I sighed and went straight to open up the door.
‘Disgusting… Aiba-chan, you could have at least buttoned your shirt up properly… Oh, gross! You will have a hickey on your neck…’ It was Nino. He stopped by to hand in a few mangas and magazines for Sho-chan to read and take his portable console back. He passed me by, walked toward a table in the room, and put all the stuff he brought in on top of it.
‘Nino, you really should stop making fun of us,’ Sho-chan said with a serious expression on his face. Nino just smirked and said:
‘And you two should be more careful. That’s all…’ and he left, while passing me by and slapping my butt. HE SLAPPED MY BUTT!
‘You two can have fun now, I’m leaving.’ Nino slammed the door in our faces.
What was that all about? Well, it doesn’t matter anymore because the entire mood was spoiled. I just sat next to Sho-chan and laid my head on his shoulder.
I want to thow him a big welcome party when he’s discharged. Just the two of us... Of course, the rest of Arashi will be there too. However, as soon as they leave, I will make sure Sho-chan gets some proper rest!
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I was finally discharged from the hospital. I wanted to head back home. However, when I got there, I found a letter hung on the door.
Dear Sakurai Sho-san,
Today is your first day out of the hospital. Congratulations! I’m throwing a huge welcome party at my house and have invited the rest of the members. Please, come and stop by.
Sincerely,
Aiba Masaki…-chan! (^_^)b
The previous message was written on that letter. I went to Masaki's house and knocked on the door first. I waited a little after knocking and, then, he opened the door. He was not alone because everyone else was there as well.
"Welcome back, Sho-chan!" The guys greeted me happily and threw confetti at me.
"Uh! I am home." I got startled.
All of them came to hug me. Masaki could not do that, so he just hugged all of us in one go. I was so surprised at their reaction. I mean, four guys at once!? Oh, God! I got squished!
We were eating, talking, having fun with each other with penalty games and so on. We did many, many things. I really enjoyed this party a lot! I am so glad to have friends like them.
After the guys left, I wanted to go out. However, Masaki grabbed my wrist firmly.
"Where do you think you are going, Sakurai Sho-san!?" He seemed a bit disappointed. "I made this party especially for you so that you could stay here with me the entire night." He was gazing at my eyes.
"Uh! Masaki…" I was scratching my head. "I was just thinking about going home and rest."
"You will rest here, Sho-chan, and you do know how." He had this naughty look on his face that even I got scared of!
"Masaki!" I screamed a bit.
And from here on, I'm being pulled by him to his room. His room!? I mean… our room as he calls it. Weird thing!
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As soon as I closed the door, I wanted to kiss him... so badly that I smashed my lips against his until each other breath’s was taken away. I didn’t want to make him tired like before, so I pushed him away a bit and smiled… That was my welcome gift for him. I wanted more though… ><
‘Welcome home, Sho-chan…’ I said and sat on the bed. He came to me and sat next to me and put his hand on mine.
‘Tadaima~’ he whispered and kissed me softly. Did I mention that he is tasty? He is… Sho-chan started to kiss my neck… I loved it!
‘Stooooop… I don’t want you to get tired again…’
‘I will be OK. Trust me…’
‘But Sho-chan…’
‘Trust me!’ Thus, he started to lick my chest. I was confused… It really felt so good, but I was worried about hurting Sho-chan once again.
‘Sho-chan, don’t…’ I wanted to make him stop, but he reached my stomach with his tongue.
‘Now, it’s my turn… to show you my feelings…’
I could feel his warm lips on me. It was an extremely good feeling, but that sneaky little voice in my head was telling me that I should stop him before it was too late… Too late for what?? I couldn’t understand… ><
When I was trying to quiet down this voice, Sho started to suck harder… I felt like exploding in seconds…
‘Sho… I’m about toooooo…’ I wanted to say something, but I could only see starts at that moment… I really did! It was warm; hot you might even say and tiring. Now, I understand how he felt… I was shivering, and I was cold… I wasn’t cold because of the temperature in the room… It was because I felt lonely for that nanosecond that Sho-chan went for some water and a blanket to cover me up. I hugged him tight and I was moved by this sensation, so I started to sniff…
‘Masaki… What happened? Did I hurt you?’ He asked me with a tone of voice that denoted worry and fright.
‘No… Of course not!’ *sniff sniff* ‘I am just so happy… And, I love you, Sho-chan!’
‘I love you too, Masaki…’ Those were the last words I heard before I fell asleep.
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THE END
tsuchi8562: Here you go! The last chapter! Hope you'll liked it! Now, my dear friends... I'm going to die from watching my ichiban *runs to watch Bartender*
juchi_kazunashi: Well... I had fun writing this, and I wanna thank my partner, Natasha-chan, for writing this with me. This is our first, but not the only one. Please wait for the possibility of our next collaboration! Thank you for reading our story! <3
Pairing: SakurAiba
Genre: Romance, angst, POV
Rating: NC-17
Authors: juchi_kazunashi and me
Beta: Our sweet friend xxdaviexx
Disclaimer: We don't own SakurAiba though we really want to...
Summary: Sho and Aiba are writing their diaries. Part III
WARNING! This chapter is totally different than the previous ones! Minors, Please stay away!
juchi_kazunashi --> Sho's POV, me --> Aiba's POV
Both of us were sleeping. I was talking in my sleep then. How did I know that? Masaki told me after I woke up of course! Haha!
He told me that all I was saying was: "Masaki, you are so cute. Let me hug you and kiss your sweet lips."
I felt a huge embarrassment then! I did say that for real!? He told me that he was trying to hold his laugh just because he did not want to wake me up. I got closer to him, but I was kind of confused.
"Masaki." I was kind of shivering. "Is it okay to do this? You cut all ties with that girl already?"
"You talked to her, right, Sho-chan?" He held my hand. "So, I think it is okay now."
"But..." I scratched my head.
"Oh, come on, Sho-chan! You know you want to do it!" He pulled me quickly and strongly toward his lips!
We started to kiss each other [on our lips--> This can be eliminated.], and I started to take off his shirt slowly. I was kind of afraid, but I think that we were finally experiencing our most awaited moment with each other, right?
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Sho-chan’s hands are warm and his touch makes me shiver. I felt his lips on my neck and his fingers on my back. It felt extremely good. I put my hands under his shirt to touch his soft skin. He giggled a bit.
‘Masaki, that tickles!’ - he said straight into my ear and all I could think was that his lips were touching mine. So, I started to kiss him slowly, tasting him with all my might. He surely is yummy… My sweet, yummy Sho-chan!
I really wanted to taste him. I mean TASTE him… So, I started to lick his neck and kept moving down his body with my tongue. I don’t know where I learned these things, or who had I learned them from. Somehow, I just knew what I needed to do and how I should do it. Soon, I traced his chest with my saliva and reached the border of his pants. I could hear his heavy breath, which stimulated me to taste him even more. I slightly pulled down his pants and touched his stomach. He put his hand on mine and asked:
‘Are you sure Masaki? Do you really want to do this?’
‘Yes, Sho… I love you…’
So, I started to lick away... from his navel to his semi-hard member. I covered the last one with my mouth and started to suck it a bit. I was hearing Sho-chan’s quiet moans and that gave me the courage to lick it harder and faster. I was so happy that he liked it! I felt his fingers caressing my hair [while calling my name over and over again] [and he was repeating my name].
I wanted to taste him to the fullest. I added some hand movements and, shortly after that, I finally started to feel something wet in my mouth. Sho was moving his hips and pushing them forward, so I took him deeper into my mouth. He was pulling my hair and it hurt a bit, but I liked it. And, then, he came right into my mouth… I swallowed all of his cum and immediately felt that his body became weaker. He helped to me stand up and held me so tight.
‘I love you Masaki,’ he said right into my ear.
‘I love you too…’ This was the only thing I could say because I was feeling so happy that my eyes became wet. I’m hoping that I was good… I’m hoping that he liked it… I’m hoping that I made him happy…
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This was kind of painful, but I do not mind it as long as we love each other. Both of us were semi-nude. After Masaki had made love to me, I felt like I did not [get] [have] enough. So, I kissed his lips, caressed his hair, and touched his nude body all the way from top to bottom. I was afraid of tickling him, but he told me that it was okay.
Okay! I got really tired of this, though I wanted to but could not complete it! The way Masaki was touching me was painful, so I rested a bit. I was still semi-nude, but I was too tired to put my clothes back on and even cover myself with the bed sheet. I was shivering, not knowing why. [Maybe because is it cold? Or because of the pain?] [Was it the cold? Or, was it the pain?]
Masaki saw me like this and hurriedly covered me with the bed sheet. He was touching my hair slowly.
"Sho-chan, are you okay?" He whispered in my ear. "I am sorry if I hurt you. I love you so much." Then, he kissed my shivering lips.
"I am okay, Masaki." I was still shivering. "Maybe, the room is cold. That is all."
Then, I smiled a bit and fell asleep because I was too tired.
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Sho-chan is lying to me… Something’s wrong; I can feel it. I asked him if I had done something wrong to him, but he denied it. Perhaps, I shouldn’t have done it? I mean, I just went with the flow… I was only doing the things that my mind and heart were telling me to do. I noticed that Sho-chan moves away from me whenever I try to get close to him. Not that far away though... In the end, he still holds me tight. However, I can’t help but think that there’s a side of him that would also like to escape when he’s with me. I want to talk this over with him, but I’m afraid of the result. What if Sho-chan only has negative things to say? What if I hurt him?
Yesterday, I met him in the studio. I was so happy to see him because we hadn’t been able to meet with each other for quite a while. As soon as we entered the dressing room and were left alone, I hugged him and kissed him on the mouth.
‘I missed you, Sho-chan!’ and I smiled. I didn’t know humans could feel SO happy! But, then, he gently pushed me away and sat on a chair.
‘I’m quite busy, Masaki… I have to read this article.’ And, he just took out a newspaper. I was in shock. From that moment on, I was sure that I had done something wrong. He didn’t look at me. The mere thought of having hurt him saddened me to the point of tears running down my face. I really didn’t want to cry, but I couldn’t help it. I looked at him and asked, sniffing:
‘Nee Sho-chan… Tell me… Did I do something wrong?’
‘What are you saying, Masaki!’
‘I know I did… You’ve been pushing me away since that night. If I did something bad, tell me!’
‘But, you didn’t do anything wrong…’ he whispered and covered his eyes. He looked tired or sad. And, just then, I was certain that something was bothering him.
‘Sho-chan… Tell me the truth… What’s going on?’
‘I told you - nothing’s wrong!’ he shouted. SHOUTED!
‘When you decide to tell me the truth, call me. I can’t stand you, pushing me away. Goodbye, Sho-chan!’ - I left the room and slammed the door in his face. It occurred to me that this was the only way to make him tell me the truth.
Sho-chan… Gomenne…
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Masaki kept demanding to know the truth! I WAS really tired. I did not feel anything except that my heart was aching like hell!
"Everything will be okay, so please stop tiring yourself by beating so fast." I put my hand on my chest and patted it softly "Easy, my little fellow inside." .
I cannot hide it from Masaki anymore, or my little poor heart will suffer more from doing so. I brought my cellphone to call him, but I was still confused. Should I tell him or not? I am afraid he’ll get mad at me if I do. I mean, I do love him, but doing that… Oh my God, my head aches, not only my chest!
I was rubbing my head then. I was still thinking about calling him and, eventually, I told myself to do it and called him! Does my heart deserve this pain because I cannot tell him!? I WILL tell him right now!
I dialed his number, but it kept ringing for a long time. Please, Masaki, answer! My heart started to beat even faster when I heard the voice on the other end of the phone.
"Moshimoshi~!" He finally picked up! "Sho-chan?" He said with a soft tone of voice.
"Masaki!" I shouted a bit. "Thank goodness." I felt relieved.
"Easy, Sho-chan. What happened?" He started to get worried. "You sound like you have been chased by someone."
"Masaki, I want to tell you this, but I am afraid of your reaction." My heart started to beat again, so I put my hand on my chest.
"You have been avoiding me, Sho-chan." He was still worried. "Eh? My reaction? What do you mean?" He got that last part a bit later.
"It was… It was…" My heart started to beat faster, so I held my suit's shirt very tightly.
"Sho-chan!!! Why are you panting!?" His voice started to [break] [change to a crying tone]. "Is there something wrong? Do not make me so worried!"
"Masaki!" I was panting when I shouted. "It was… my… first time… making love… to… a… man!" I even tightened the hold on my suit's shirt more when I was still panting.
Oh, gosh! My eyes started to form tears because I was so scared that I felt like I could die! What would Masaki's reaction be? Oh, boy! I hope he will not be disappointed. My poor little heart inside me... I think it has suffered enough.
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I didn’t do anything wrong. I did something NEW. He was nervous because of that! I think he loves me… That’s why he let me do it…
‘Sho-chan,’ I said when he came to my place. ‘It was my first time too! I just… wanted to show you how much I love you…’
‘You have never done this before?!’ He asked with surprise on his face. I love his face the most when he is surprised…
‘No…’
‘So, how did you know what to do?’
‘I didn’t. I just did what my heart was telling me to…’ My face became red. I was looking down on the floor; I didn’t want Sho-chan to see that I was blushing too much. He pulled my chin up and made me look into his eyes. And, I blushed even more, so I just hugged him.
‘I’m sorry…’ I whispered right into his ear.
‘Calm down, Masaki… You didn’t do anything wrong. It was just something new for me, so I was a bit afraid of it… That’s all.’
‘It was new for me too! I just… I don’t know…’ I hugged him, driving him closer to me. He is most important to me. This is what I wanted to show. I told him all of it, and he just patted me on the head.
‘You’re important to me too…’ He said.
But, something bad had already happened too! Others noticed that we were acting pretty strange, and Nino started to joke about it. He said, with certainty, that we surely had done it and were now acting like a couple of kids… Meanie!!
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"Nino, could you please stay away?" I asked him politely.
"Why? I was just stating the truth. You both did it." He had this mean look on his face. "And, who do you think tried to cool down your mind with video games, Sho-chan?" He sounded like he was scolding me.
"Just… stay away, please." I did not know what to say except this.
"As you wish. I will get going." He seemed to be looking down on us. "Hope you two have a 'happy life' with each other." He was making fun of us, but that was the least of the things I could care of.
After Nino had left, I wanted to go back to Masaki. Unfortunately, I felt dizzy and fell down suddenly. Luckily, Masaki rushed to hold me before I ended up falling down on the floor.
"Ma… sa… ki." I was breathing heavily. "I… can… handle it." I held his arms tightly.
I was trying to stand up, but my body was not responding. The image of my body being tightly held by Masaki's hands was the last thing I could see before going unconscious.
"Masaki, I… love… you." That was the last thing I said, and then I went unconscious.
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Don’t cry. Don’t cry! DON’T CRY!!!
My poor Sho-chan collapsed, and I was so worried! They took him to the hospital and, now, I can’t see him because the doctor said that he needs to rest. Oh, I will make sure that nobody disturbs him.
I stayed at the hospital until the visiting hours were over. I hope he will be OK…
A few days later, I was finally given permission to visit Sho. He was lying down on this huge bed, and he looked good. Nevertheless, he was so impatient and wanted to go back to work urgently.
‘Sho-chan, dame! You need to rest!’ I held him down to force him to sit on the bed.
‘But, Masaki, we have work to do!’ He begged me.
‘I was in the hospital for a month, remember? You all encouraged me and that gave me strength. Now, don’t complain and just rest. I’ll leave you alone. Jaa~!’
‘Masaki! Stay.’ He said with that soft tone of voice. ‘Stay for a while, please…’
I wanted to stay, but I was really scared that this could be tiring for him. But, he asked me with those cute puppy eyes, so I couldn’t say no. I sat on a chair, but Sho-chan asked me to sit on the bed, so I did. Suddenly, he hugged me! He was holding me so tight that I could barely breathe.
‘Sho-chan… You will break my ribs…’
‘I’m sorry… I just missed you for so many days!’
‘But, it was just 3 days…’
‘Too long…’ He whispered in my ear and kissed me. At the same time, Jun, Riidaa, and Nino entered the room with flowers. We noticed their presence because Nino said:
‘Gosh, you can stop already! Or, at least, lock the door!!’
But, he was smacked in the head by Jun.
‘Leave them alone!’ He said in his Domyouji fashion. He’s scary this way... Therefore, Nino had no other choice but to apologize to us…
Sho-chan’s leaving the hospital tomorrow. We wanted to throw him a party, but I don’t think this is good idea… Maybe, we should all just greet him and let him rest…
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It was my last day in the hospital. I felt lonely, so I dialed Masaki's number. Why am I calling him? I think he got tired of me with all those demands for him to stay with me. Anyway, I already called him. So, let us see how things will turn out.
"Moshimoshi? Sho-chan?" Masaki replied cheerfully.
"I am sorry for calling you now, but I feel lonely and want you to [be with me] [keep me company]." I asked him. "Are you busy now?"
"Kind of... Just give me one hour and I will come, okay, Sho-chan?" He said with a soft tone of voice. "And, you absolutely do not have to apologize! I love you and love being with you, you know." He said cheerfully.
"Okay, Masaki. I will wait." And, I hung up with a slight smile on my face.
Gosh! This hour of waiting seems [really long] [like never ending torture]! I had nothing else to do, so I turned on the TV to watch some entertainment news after 25 minutes approximately.
They were talking about News ZERO, about the fact that I could not be there today because I was staying here, at the hospital, so there were going to be two other remaining reporters taking over for the time being. I got so worried after hearing this that I wanted to stand up and try to get there as fast as I could. However, every time I try to stand up, I feel a little dizzy.
I had no other choice but to stay on my bed, worrying about that news show. The remaining 30 minutes, however, have passed so fast... mainly because I was still watching TV. Finally, Masaki’s here!
"I hope I am not late, Sho-chan." He smiled at me as soon as he entered the room.
"No, you are not, Masaki!" I was so happy right there, just then. "Though you are a bit... But, it is okay as long as I can see you."
"Thanks, Sho-chan!" And he came to sit beside me.
"Masaki." I started to touch his cheek. "Can you turn off the lights, close the curtains, and lock the door very well?"
"Sho-chan!!! Here and now!?" He got so surprised. "We are still in the hospital!" His eyes widened.
"Does not matter." I was having a serious look on my face.
"Okay then." He was confused.
After Masaki finished doing everything I asked him to do, he sat beside me. I quickly and strongly attacked his lips with mine. He got surprised, but he seemed to like it. When I was kissing his neck, I started to unbutton his shirt. I touched his chest and started to lick it.
However, when I was about to do more than that, we heard a knock on the door. I was frustrated because I could not do what I wanted! Masaki went to open the door after he finished buttoning his shirt up quickly.
Gosh! I so love Masaki! Who is the one spoiling the moment!?
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Somebody knocked on the door when we were having our special moment… Who was that? Gosh, I really didn’t want it to end…
‘Sho-chan… Let’s pretend that no one’s here…’ I whispered.
‘Masaki! This is not our home! We are at a hospital and everyone already knows that I am here!’ He said. He was a bit mad; I don’t know if he was being mad at me or at the person who kept knocking on the door, louder and louder. I sighed and went straight to open up the door.
‘Disgusting… Aiba-chan, you could have at least buttoned your shirt up properly… Oh, gross! You will have a hickey on your neck…’ It was Nino. He stopped by to hand in a few mangas and magazines for Sho-chan to read and take his portable console back. He passed me by, walked toward a table in the room, and put all the stuff he brought in on top of it.
‘Nino, you really should stop making fun of us,’ Sho-chan said with a serious expression on his face. Nino just smirked and said:
‘And you two should be more careful. That’s all…’ and he left, while passing me by and slapping my butt. HE SLAPPED MY BUTT!
‘You two can have fun now, I’m leaving.’ Nino slammed the door in our faces.
What was that all about? Well, it doesn’t matter anymore because the entire mood was spoiled. I just sat next to Sho-chan and laid my head on his shoulder.
I want to thow him a big welcome party when he’s discharged. Just the two of us... Of course, the rest of Arashi will be there too. However, as soon as they leave, I will make sure Sho-chan gets some proper rest!
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I was finally discharged from the hospital. I wanted to head back home. However, when I got there, I found a letter hung on the door.
Dear Sakurai Sho-san,
Today is your first day out of the hospital. Congratulations! I’m throwing a huge welcome party at my house and have invited the rest of the members. Please, come and stop by.
Sincerely,
Aiba Masaki…-chan! (^_^)b
The previous message was written on that letter. I went to Masaki's house and knocked on the door first. I waited a little after knocking and, then, he opened the door. He was not alone because everyone else was there as well.
"Welcome back, Sho-chan!" The guys greeted me happily and threw confetti at me.
"Uh! I am home." I got startled.
All of them came to hug me. Masaki could not do that, so he just hugged all of us in one go. I was so surprised at their reaction. I mean, four guys at once!? Oh, God! I got squished!
We were eating, talking, having fun with each other with penalty games and so on. We did many, many things. I really enjoyed this party a lot! I am so glad to have friends like them.
After the guys left, I wanted to go out. However, Masaki grabbed my wrist firmly.
"Where do you think you are going, Sakurai Sho-san!?" He seemed a bit disappointed. "I made this party especially for you so that you could stay here with me the entire night." He was gazing at my eyes.
"Uh! Masaki…" I was scratching my head. "I was just thinking about going home and rest."
"You will rest here, Sho-chan, and you do know how." He had this naughty look on his face that even I got scared of!
"Masaki!" I screamed a bit.
And from here on, I'm being pulled by him to his room. His room!? I mean… our room as he calls it. Weird thing!
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As soon as I closed the door, I wanted to kiss him... so badly that I smashed my lips against his until each other breath’s was taken away. I didn’t want to make him tired like before, so I pushed him away a bit and smiled… That was my welcome gift for him. I wanted more though… ><
‘Welcome home, Sho-chan…’ I said and sat on the bed. He came to me and sat next to me and put his hand on mine.
‘Tadaima~’ he whispered and kissed me softly. Did I mention that he is tasty? He is… Sho-chan started to kiss my neck… I loved it!
‘Stooooop… I don’t want you to get tired again…’
‘I will be OK. Trust me…’
‘But Sho-chan…’
‘Trust me!’ Thus, he started to lick my chest. I was confused… It really felt so good, but I was worried about hurting Sho-chan once again.
‘Sho-chan, don’t…’ I wanted to make him stop, but he reached my stomach with his tongue.
‘Now, it’s my turn… to show you my feelings…’
I could feel his warm lips on me. It was an extremely good feeling, but that sneaky little voice in my head was telling me that I should stop him before it was too late… Too late for what?? I couldn’t understand… ><
When I was trying to quiet down this voice, Sho started to suck harder… I felt like exploding in seconds…
‘Sho… I’m about toooooo…’ I wanted to say something, but I could only see starts at that moment… I really did! It was warm; hot you might even say and tiring. Now, I understand how he felt… I was shivering, and I was cold… I wasn’t cold because of the temperature in the room… It was because I felt lonely for that nanosecond that Sho-chan went for some water and a blanket to cover me up. I hugged him tight and I was moved by this sensation, so I started to sniff…
‘Masaki… What happened? Did I hurt you?’ He asked me with a tone of voice that denoted worry and fright.
‘No… Of course not!’ *sniff sniff* ‘I am just so happy… And, I love you, Sho-chan!’
‘I love you too, Masaki…’ Those were the last words I heard before I fell asleep.
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THE END
tsuchi8562: Here you go! The last chapter! Hope you'll liked it! Now, my dear friends... I'm going to die from watching my ichiban *runs to watch Bartender*
juchi_kazunashi: Well... I had fun writing this, and I wanna thank my partner, Natasha-chan, for writing this with me. This is our first, but not the only one. Please wait for the possibility of our next collaboration! Thank you for reading our story! <3