Kuyashiiiii~~
Busy, busy, BUSY!!! My work is killing me now, I am working in sick shifts now, I finished night ones, and now I'm starting morning ones... 10 hours a day at work... I'm tired, and all I want to do is sleep or let my mind escape to my dream place; my personal AU...
Yes, I'm writing fanfic again. Yes, I know... I wrote a lot for that 2 months or so... But I promise, that when I'll finish my multi-chaptered story I won't write any single word... I need to rest... Not mentioning, that I'm sleeping about 4 hours a day... Because of work and because I want to spend some time with my friends, and also I want to end my story. I made one wise-stupid things... You know, the one that is good and could bring me some peace of mind, but at the same time it will be life-consuming... I mean LIFE-CONSUMING... Digits, tables, analysis, statistics... Hate those... I know that clearly... So I just simply gave up.
I know that this may resolve few of my problems, but I need to think about myself, ne? If I know that I won't handle it, and that could bring me lots of stress and I will be tired even more than now... Is it worth it? I have no idea. I know that I have a deadline: Monday, 4 PM. I need to make lots of things, but I'm not sure.... I don't know whether I want to do that...
Am I a quitter? Probably. Am I a coward? For sure. Did I disappoint someone? Maybe. Do I care? I don't know...
I watched first episode of 'Quarter'... It seems that it will be a good drama... Matsushita Yuuya looks there... LOOKS <3
Still impressed by 'Bartender' though. Even if the file was broken, even if it took more time to watch it, and that I will need to watch it again... I was kyaaaing and squeeling that much that my mum told me to shut up... Aaaah~~ Mendokuseeeeeeeeeee....