Morning babble
Well this morning when i woke up i had the worst headache ever. Well i guess i didn't drink enough water cause i feel so hung over right now its not even funny. I had a shot of baileys carmel and chugged a whole beer down all within 15-20 minutes. I had a really bad day at work but i think i will have enough money in my account to compensate in case the gay ass collection agency decides to pull a quick one again. I so can't wait for this thing to be paid off cause i'm sick of dealing with collection agencies...Im tired of being poor and Im tired of living on the edge every fuckin weekend begging for money from customers that give me a hard time. I want something so much more than this but i know thats not going to happen any time soon. the modeling thing i have to gain some repore before i can hit the big time shoots. they aren't going to take a n00b in there for a major label to model for them. so ya thats going to take some time but im sure if i can gain some of the castings on my resume I will be good to go :).
On a note about matt...I wish i could only be a better girlfriend to him. Once again I feel i have failed him. We were once again disagreeing with one another aka fighting. i like the word disagreeing better because fighting is just harsh in itself. I just wish i could control my words at times but I had that bottled inside me for too long. I needed to get it out but thats what happens when i express myself. I get in disagreements that i dont want to get into. I guess he wants to take me out tonight but i told him not to worry about it. its really not necessary but whatever im not going to disagree with him anymore. I dont want to lose him and he doesn't want to lose me so i think it would make things easier if we both just didnt disagree anymore.
But on another note this math shit sucks ass. I have no clue what the fuck im doing I hate chem cause its dry and boring material. and the lab on this omg fuckin insane this one lab is going to take 2 weeks to do I'm like great so i'm guaranteed to be there till 10 for the next two mondays just what i want to do.... But i'm hoping the omel people got my package i sent to them this past week. I know its going to take some time to get there but its only because i didn't have the money to send it out express. its like 14.40 to express mail it out so that kind of sucks.... but ya i need to shower cya
On a note about matt...I wish i could only be a better girlfriend to him. Once again I feel i have failed him. We were once again disagreeing with one another aka fighting. i like the word disagreeing better because fighting is just harsh in itself. I just wish i could control my words at times but I had that bottled inside me for too long. I needed to get it out but thats what happens when i express myself. I get in disagreements that i dont want to get into. I guess he wants to take me out tonight but i told him not to worry about it. its really not necessary but whatever im not going to disagree with him anymore. I dont want to lose him and he doesn't want to lose me so i think it would make things easier if we both just didnt disagree anymore.
But on another note this math shit sucks ass. I have no clue what the fuck im doing I hate chem cause its dry and boring material. and the lab on this omg fuckin insane this one lab is going to take 2 weeks to do I'm like great so i'm guaranteed to be there till 10 for the next two mondays just what i want to do.... But i'm hoping the omel people got my package i sent to them this past week. I know its going to take some time to get there but its only because i didn't have the money to send it out express. its like 14.40 to express mail it out so that kind of sucks.... but ya i need to shower cya