Reflection

Mar 21, 2005 16:19

Love is patient; love is kind; love is not
envious or boastful or arrogant or rude. It
does not insist on its own way; it is not
irritable or resentful; it does not rejoice in
wrongdoing, but rejoices in the truth. It
bears all things, believes all things, hopes
all things, endures all things.

Love never ends. But as for prophecies,
they will come to an end; as for tongues,
they will cease; as for knowledge, it will
come to an end. For we know only in part,
and we prophesy only in part; but when the
complete comes, the partial will come to an end.

When I was a child, I spoke like a child, I thought
like a child, I reasoned like a child; when I became
an adult, I put an end to childish ways. For now we
see in a mirror, dimly, but then we will see face to
face. Now I know only in part; then I will know fully,
even as I have been fully known. And now faith, hope,
and love abide, these three; and the greatest of these
is love.

- The Bible - 1 Corinthians - chapter 13

To some of you that have read my journal through my trials and tribulations over the years have seen that exact quote posted many times. Each time I've had a new boyfriend, I've posted it, although I've never posted the last part of it and I think there's an unconcious reason behind that.

You see, I first stumbled upon that quote when I saw the movie A Walk to Remember. I was like hey that's an awesome definition of love (they only mentioned the first part). That's exactly what I want! So ever since then, I've been keeping this quote in my head and trying to make everyone that I've been with fit it.

It didn't work obviously, but it was one hell of a quest. I have to say without all the trials and tribulations that I've been through, I wouldn't be the woman standing before you today. While I would've loved to have gone through it all without the heartache that came with it, I suppose it was part of the price I had to pay to find the one person that does fit that idea.

I think I as a person also needed a change in thinking. I was very childish in my mindset and sometimes I had to be told harshly to get the point across. What can I say, I probably deserved it.

Now I can tell you that I do know what love is and I have found one person that fits that definition of love perfectly and that would be Brandon. There's a magic there that I've never felt before. What's more is that he truly cares for me and worries to death when there's something wrong with me. For example, this week I've been sick with the flu and he's been worried sick. Furthermore, he's been willing to do the one thing that no one else would. He's moving here to be with me.

Brandon has managed to bring back a happiness within me that hasn't been there since I was little. I don't know how he did it but then again he's an amazing individual and I wouldn't put anything past him. I like to think that I make him as happy as he makes me and I hope I can always make him that happy.

I don't have to look anymore...and that makes me look forward to the future.
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