"thank you for knowing me"
Life is tolerable right now. Josh is the source of all of my happiness and my mom throws in some goodness every once in a while... things could get really serious now--simply terrifying. I'm noticing my weaknesses and irritants and its only verifying what i didn't think could be true. Curly Sue has been stopping by these days. She's jealous of Josh because he weakens the intensity of her presence by loving me the way he does. She's into more advanced games as she's grown a bit. She has a new obsession with Russian Roulette and Blow, its a good thing she has trouble getting a hold of both because as you know, I have to supervise her sometimes. He is the greatest love I've ever known- living, walking, breathing on this planet with me. He just wants me to be happy, and I just want him to be happy because I love him so much. I could really use a smoke...
