Some things never change...
I've always had an obsession with fabulous people, or rich people, or weird people, Gothic people, girls, white girls, Asian girls, rich girls, funky girls, artistic girls, anorexic girls, suicide girls. All of these people hold qualities that I wish I beheld. Facebook is like my little fix.. I can look at the lives of all of the people I grew up with and watch them evolve into all kinds of individuals. I want to go back to school. I want to be on the dean's list have money and be as fashionable as the rest of the girls there. I want to live with my boyfriend cook him dinner each night and rock his world for dessert. I want to go to the gym and just stop this summer binge thing that I've been doing. I want to get my plastics and remove the 50lbs of extra skin that I have on the frame that use to be my 370lb body. I want to get my implants and flash everyone with new perky breasts. I want a little dog. I want to be all that I've ever wanted to be. I want my mom to be proud of me and my love to be deeper in love with me. I want to be fascinated with myself.
