Wooh boy, do I have issues!
Well, I know I have issues. All you have to do is read this journal to see that.
Also, I have realised I have more than one journal. Knowing where to post my nonsense is getting silly! And to top it off I am thinking of writing a food blog of sorts!!
Shakes her head in despair.
So, what's my current issue? Well, it has to do with food strangely enough! Or more to the point my favourite place in my home, and at times my least favourite!
I have a lot of little OCD like behaviours! Most of them are kitchen related! Order of washing up! How stuff is dried up! How I proceed into a recipe. Order of cleaning surfaces! Where things are kept! The list is probably as long as my arm!
One of my bug bears is the cleanliness of my kitchen! Once it's clean, I bask in it's cleanliness.
But then I have a love of cooking and baking! And oh, the mess it can make!! Arrgghhhhh!
But it doesn't stop there! Another little quirk of my inner monologue madness is that I don't produce enough washing up to justify to run the taps for a few pots and a plate! I can't get up enough drive to start a ten minute washing up cycle! It needs to take me at least 30 minutes to wash up to feel like I'm doing a good job! I get itchy, I start empty cupboards and washing up stuff that's already cleaned. I start sorting out already sorted cupboards! Baking is better, it seems to generate the right amount of mess to get the marigolds on and the water flowing!
After baking, worktops need wiping down and equipment needs to be cleaned! Plus I'm waiting for things to bake! So the 20 minutes is justifiably spent. But I can't do that with cooking! Saucepans can't be washed up while I wait for dinner to finish. Same with pans in the oven!!
And then the mess piles up and my kitchen temple falls into ruin so I don't enter it unless I have to! So I don't eat properly! Quick things! Cheese on toast for instance. Or beans on toast, soups, scrambled eggs. Quick things which don't help, as this just makes the pile grow slower!!
I do have one respite from my madness. Early hours! Something about the hours between 2am and 5am that just turns off my quirks and fires up my housekeeping to 11!! Thank god, I'm sensible enough not to hoover or I think my neighbour might disapprove of my eccentricities! And I still feel slightly guilty about the noise my boiler makes when it kicks into life at 3am!!
So yeah, I guess that's why I don't eat so properly! One good meal a week and my kitchen is descended into a chaos that my mind rebels at and abandons!!
It's why I like cooking for others I guess! It generates more mess!! Madness isn't it??
Also, I have realised I have more than one journal. Knowing where to post my nonsense is getting silly! And to top it off I am thinking of writing a food blog of sorts!!
Shakes her head in despair.
So, what's my current issue? Well, it has to do with food strangely enough! Or more to the point my favourite place in my home, and at times my least favourite!
I have a lot of little OCD like behaviours! Most of them are kitchen related! Order of washing up! How stuff is dried up! How I proceed into a recipe. Order of cleaning surfaces! Where things are kept! The list is probably as long as my arm!
One of my bug bears is the cleanliness of my kitchen! Once it's clean, I bask in it's cleanliness.
But then I have a love of cooking and baking! And oh, the mess it can make!! Arrgghhhhh!
But it doesn't stop there! Another little quirk of my inner monologue madness is that I don't produce enough washing up to justify to run the taps for a few pots and a plate! I can't get up enough drive to start a ten minute washing up cycle! It needs to take me at least 30 minutes to wash up to feel like I'm doing a good job! I get itchy, I start empty cupboards and washing up stuff that's already cleaned. I start sorting out already sorted cupboards! Baking is better, it seems to generate the right amount of mess to get the marigolds on and the water flowing!
After baking, worktops need wiping down and equipment needs to be cleaned! Plus I'm waiting for things to bake! So the 20 minutes is justifiably spent. But I can't do that with cooking! Saucepans can't be washed up while I wait for dinner to finish. Same with pans in the oven!!
And then the mess piles up and my kitchen temple falls into ruin so I don't enter it unless I have to! So I don't eat properly! Quick things! Cheese on toast for instance. Or beans on toast, soups, scrambled eggs. Quick things which don't help, as this just makes the pile grow slower!!
I do have one respite from my madness. Early hours! Something about the hours between 2am and 5am that just turns off my quirks and fires up my housekeeping to 11!! Thank god, I'm sensible enough not to hoover or I think my neighbour might disapprove of my eccentricities! And I still feel slightly guilty about the noise my boiler makes when it kicks into life at 3am!!
So yeah, I guess that's why I don't eat so properly! One good meal a week and my kitchen is descended into a chaos that my mind rebels at and abandons!!
It's why I like cooking for others I guess! It generates more mess!! Madness isn't it??