I would have had a gummi bear
if I was still pregnant I would have had a gummi bear in my belly right now. His little heart would have been beating, he would have been moving his little feet and hands - he would have had fingerprints already.
I am still upset that he is gone. I was so excited. I was also glad to have something to "look forward to" as cheesy as that sounds. It is just that I have had nothing to look forward to. Everything seems so bleak.
Yesterday was also 4 years that my parents have died. It was all around a sucky day. I miss them still every day. At least I slept through the morning. Usually I do the "well now is when I called mom and woke her up and spoke to her for the last time" "Now is when dad called me and told me what he did" "now is when the police called me and pulled me over" "now is when I saw my brother" "now is when I told my grandmother" I blissfully slept through that yesterday... I should call my gramma - wonder how she is doing
I wonder how some people just move on so quickly and just get on with things, when I still feel so bound by all of what has happened? Or how when I remind someone that it is a memorial day for me, they dont care, or give me a little extra TLC
Flowers would be nice.
I am still upset that he is gone. I was so excited. I was also glad to have something to "look forward to" as cheesy as that sounds. It is just that I have had nothing to look forward to. Everything seems so bleak.
Yesterday was also 4 years that my parents have died. It was all around a sucky day. I miss them still every day. At least I slept through the morning. Usually I do the "well now is when I called mom and woke her up and spoke to her for the last time" "Now is when dad called me and told me what he did" "now is when the police called me and pulled me over" "now is when I saw my brother" "now is when I told my grandmother" I blissfully slept through that yesterday... I should call my gramma - wonder how she is doing
I wonder how some people just move on so quickly and just get on with things, when I still feel so bound by all of what has happened? Or how when I remind someone that it is a memorial day for me, they dont care, or give me a little extra TLC
Flowers would be nice.