Feeling the difference..
Tonight I wanted to discuss the progress of my running. In May I definitely didn't train as much as I had before, and as much as I am now. I did the nude run regardless, and it definitely was my slowest 5k race...but on the other hand...it was one of my most enjoyable experiences racing. Before I was concerned that I wouldnt be comfortable running naked in a group of people...but the whole experience was much different then I had imagined it. Once Nathan and I got there and got to look around a bit, the whole idea and concept of being all natural seemed much more intriguing then frightening...and in a matter of minutes I felt really comfortable there and it felt really natural to be walking around in my own pure form.
The resort was really cool, the people were extremely nice, and I felt so comfortable and at ease there. I'm so glad we did it. I also felt an extra sense of closeness to Nathan and a sort of bonding going there with him...it was a profound feeling to have someone so amazing in my life that I could do things like this with and be comfortable with and...the whole time I felt an overwhelming fondness and love for him...not sure he realized how much it meant to me that we experienced that together.
But yeah...I'm really looking forward to going back there with him :D
So yeah, back to running. Since then I have been trying to keep up running much more frequently..and I have been! Granted the race was just 2 weeks ago..but I have ran at 4 days per week the past two weeks...and just this last week I reached my farthest distance, 5 miles and it felt great!
So this weekend I planned on running at least once, but I hadn't gotten the chance yet..Friday and Sat it didn't happen..so I figured today it would have to..but didn't know when since I was spending the whole day in Jackson. Well we got home pretty early and I was pleased I'd have time to run...well then my mom wanted to go to a movie...so then it was..okay I guess monday morning I'll have to make sure I get one in...well I got home from the movie and it was still only 9:30 and I was feeling pretty good and for some reason I just really wanted to run...even though I had splurged a little today with pop (which I have barely been drinking and its been at least days since I've had any) and ice cream...which I think actually motivated me to run haha (more on this concept later..) So I get home, and before anything changes my mind I throw on my running shoes, grab my mp3 player and tell my mom I'll be back in like half an hour.
Well I've been getting sick of my usual track so I decided to run on the trails, which was a nice surprise because the trail is lit up basically the whole way. Well I just have to say...Wow..my entire run felt amazing...there's always that hard push in the beginning, but my pace was consistent and much faster then it has been and I was astounded how well I kept it going...tonight was one of those nights when I could really feel my bodies conditioning...I reached that moment when I was running and I thought..yes, im pushing myself, yes, its harder to breath and I feel out of breath, yes, its difficult...but at the same time I feel better then I ever have running and there was extra skip in my step...I even ran up trestle park steps and looped off a bit and added some distance...so I can't be sure of my exact distance..but I'm fairly sure that I ran at Least 3.5 miles in 36 minutes (the loop I mapped out on mapmyrun claims it was 3.5 but its hard to get accurate distance when ts on a train and not road)...so I'm also fairly sure that my pace didn't go over 11 very much at all...I know in the grand scheme of things this is no huge feat..but how I FELT and what it means for ME is incredible.
How far I have come is so much farther then were I imagined I would get when I started this training...plus I also found I really like running the trails at night..no ones around, its well lit up and much cooler :) much more enjoyable then my old route. I never knew I would be able to go on a run and not just feel like stopping the entire time :)
I wish Nathan could have gone on this run with me! It felt so good and I think he would have been really impressed with my pace compared to what it has been last time...and I would also know exactly how far I went and what my pace was...Made me think though, if we want to do more night runs, this side of the trails in great for it :)
Another thing I was thinking about today is my worry...I've realized that I carry much more guilt with me now then I use to...now that I've been trying to eat better and get in better condition...I'm far more aware of what I'm eating, how much of it, when I don't run and its been a certain amount of time, and I carry around a lot more guilt then I use to...like today I had 2 cans of dr.pepper and half of one of those mini coke cans..and I felt bad about it, and was concerned I didn't eat too much desert and snack all day like I usually do there...yet lunch was super healthy and desert was angel food cake and strawberries..lol before I never would have thought twice about any of that...eaten worse food and drank more pop then that...Interesting how your perspective changes...on the other hand, I think I've lost more weight then I thought I had. I weighed myself on my dads scale today and I've been pretty sure that his scale isn't accurate for some time now and is usually says im more then what I actually am...so I weighted myself preparing for something in the 160's...and I was quite surprised to see it showed around 157...so I'm really curious to weight myself on a more accurate scale and see what it says...hehe :)
Well I've ranted enough for tonight...I just really miss Nathan so I'm keeping myself distracted with lots of various things. I borrowed The Loch from my dad again so I can re-read it...I don't usually re-read books because there are lots of other books I haven't read that I could be reading, but this is such a good book and I've just been in the mood for the kind of setting and mood this book has in it. Its suspenseful at times, has a really good story plot, lots of facts and scientific logic in it mixed with some well known myths and legends, real history involved in it, and well written...so I voted for this lol. So now I'm gonna go read that until I fall asleep and hope I get to talk to my Nathan soon...at least tomorrow...and I hope his filming is going as excellent as possible!
Night to mee.
The resort was really cool, the people were extremely nice, and I felt so comfortable and at ease there. I'm so glad we did it. I also felt an extra sense of closeness to Nathan and a sort of bonding going there with him...it was a profound feeling to have someone so amazing in my life that I could do things like this with and be comfortable with and...the whole time I felt an overwhelming fondness and love for him...not sure he realized how much it meant to me that we experienced that together.
But yeah...I'm really looking forward to going back there with him :D
So yeah, back to running. Since then I have been trying to keep up running much more frequently..and I have been! Granted the race was just 2 weeks ago..but I have ran at 4 days per week the past two weeks...and just this last week I reached my farthest distance, 5 miles and it felt great!
So this weekend I planned on running at least once, but I hadn't gotten the chance yet..Friday and Sat it didn't happen..so I figured today it would have to..but didn't know when since I was spending the whole day in Jackson. Well we got home pretty early and I was pleased I'd have time to run...well then my mom wanted to go to a movie...so then it was..okay I guess monday morning I'll have to make sure I get one in...well I got home from the movie and it was still only 9:30 and I was feeling pretty good and for some reason I just really wanted to run...even though I had splurged a little today with pop (which I have barely been drinking and its been at least days since I've had any) and ice cream...which I think actually motivated me to run haha (more on this concept later..) So I get home, and before anything changes my mind I throw on my running shoes, grab my mp3 player and tell my mom I'll be back in like half an hour.
Well I've been getting sick of my usual track so I decided to run on the trails, which was a nice surprise because the trail is lit up basically the whole way. Well I just have to say...Wow..my entire run felt amazing...there's always that hard push in the beginning, but my pace was consistent and much faster then it has been and I was astounded how well I kept it going...tonight was one of those nights when I could really feel my bodies conditioning...I reached that moment when I was running and I thought..yes, im pushing myself, yes, its harder to breath and I feel out of breath, yes, its difficult...but at the same time I feel better then I ever have running and there was extra skip in my step...I even ran up trestle park steps and looped off a bit and added some distance...so I can't be sure of my exact distance..but I'm fairly sure that I ran at Least 3.5 miles in 36 minutes (the loop I mapped out on mapmyrun claims it was 3.5 but its hard to get accurate distance when ts on a train and not road)...so I'm also fairly sure that my pace didn't go over 11 very much at all...I know in the grand scheme of things this is no huge feat..but how I FELT and what it means for ME is incredible.
How far I have come is so much farther then were I imagined I would get when I started this training...plus I also found I really like running the trails at night..no ones around, its well lit up and much cooler :) much more enjoyable then my old route. I never knew I would be able to go on a run and not just feel like stopping the entire time :)
I wish Nathan could have gone on this run with me! It felt so good and I think he would have been really impressed with my pace compared to what it has been last time...and I would also know exactly how far I went and what my pace was...Made me think though, if we want to do more night runs, this side of the trails in great for it :)
Another thing I was thinking about today is my worry...I've realized that I carry much more guilt with me now then I use to...now that I've been trying to eat better and get in better condition...I'm far more aware of what I'm eating, how much of it, when I don't run and its been a certain amount of time, and I carry around a lot more guilt then I use to...like today I had 2 cans of dr.pepper and half of one of those mini coke cans..and I felt bad about it, and was concerned I didn't eat too much desert and snack all day like I usually do there...yet lunch was super healthy and desert was angel food cake and strawberries..lol before I never would have thought twice about any of that...eaten worse food and drank more pop then that...Interesting how your perspective changes...on the other hand, I think I've lost more weight then I thought I had. I weighed myself on my dads scale today and I've been pretty sure that his scale isn't accurate for some time now and is usually says im more then what I actually am...so I weighted myself preparing for something in the 160's...and I was quite surprised to see it showed around 157...so I'm really curious to weight myself on a more accurate scale and see what it says...hehe :)
Well I've ranted enough for tonight...I just really miss Nathan so I'm keeping myself distracted with lots of various things. I borrowed The Loch from my dad again so I can re-read it...I don't usually re-read books because there are lots of other books I haven't read that I could be reading, but this is such a good book and I've just been in the mood for the kind of setting and mood this book has in it. Its suspenseful at times, has a really good story plot, lots of facts and scientific logic in it mixed with some well known myths and legends, real history involved in it, and well written...so I voted for this lol. So now I'm gonna go read that until I fall asleep and hope I get to talk to my Nathan soon...at least tomorrow...and I hope his filming is going as excellent as possible!
Night to mee.