fuckthisshitbitch!
i dropped steven off at the bus station this morning.. it was hard, as are all goodbyes. i was doing well and didnt cry till after we got his stuff on the bus and shit and then the bus driver guy said we had some time cuz he had to take a piss.. and then i cried a little. i know im going to see him in like 3 weeks but its just the principle of the thing. saying goodbye to an amazing boy so he can go fight a war. saying goodbye to someone who makes me honestly happy .. someone who basicaly makes me glow when im with him. nobody makes me feel the way he does, and it just sucks he wont be around to make me happy. when i see other couples it pisses me off. everyone else has it so much easier than they realize. they can call their significant other any time or see them any time.. at least once a week. i cant see my boyfriend for months at a time. it makes me even more pissed when ppl are like "oh i miss my boyfriend" when they just havent seen them in a day or 2. i hate how others have it so easy and dont even realize it, they take it for granted. i gues thats what i get for falling in love with a hot marine. i cant wait to go to florida to see him.. im gunna road trip i gues, but i need ppl to come w/ me! i couldnt do it alone id be scared. i might go sleep now, since i havent in a while... yeahbye.