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Oct 01, 2005 14:57

i just got off the phone with jesse. well, i actually was talking to his mom for a little while when he came home and she handed the phone. while i was talking to her i had pretty much made up my mind to break up with him. she told me that he lied to me about being at haus's house. but his interpretation of time is i guess different than hers. a little while/just a minute to him can be like 2 hours. i guess thats not that big of deal, just a misunderstanding. i basically didnt hold back when i was talking to him, i told him how he was treating me like shit and how he was making me feel. he apologized a lot and said that he was trying. he still wont tell me why i need to be there on tuesday, his mom didnt say either, just that he got paid then. talking to him kinda sucked cuz im at work and the phone kept ringing. he kept telling me that he didnt want to break up, that he was happy with me and that he loved me. i was so close to ending it. but i couldnt. i didnt want to. i love him, i know he tries to make me happy. he has way too much shit going on now though. i think this convo made him realize what he has/how much hes fucking up. hell, i made him cookies yesterday even though he was pissing me off. he says hes trying to not treat me like shit, i guess time will tell...i dont know why that boy and i havent broke up yet...i guess we are both trying to get everything to work out...like mature adults...haha
im supposed to go get fucked up at smackwater jacks tonight with jasmine, steve-o, and nydia. hopefully that will be a nice break from it all. i cant get too fuckered up though cuz i have to work sunday morning. but hell, it wouldnt be the first sunday morning i come to work still drunk/puking. thats what the hospital gets for hiring college kids to work weekends. lets just hope im not doing your blood work.
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