i realized something yesterday dealing with all the people i have to on a daily basis. in college you too have to deal with a lot of people but really you are on your own. in class maybe a partner or two but they are lectures or studios focusing on your work. you choose who you hang out with. during college i was all wah college kids suck they are ( Read more... )

geez, today was rough, wow, wanted to spell that like the bark but refrained. why is livejournal a goat? that makes no sense at all to me, see how hard it is for the poor goat to type. it's sadistic to make him the mascot. animal cruelty i say! whatever. sucking at work yet some more. going to restart my ended job at the newly renewed "surf's up ( Read more... )

i am up, since 6:30am, can't sleep, at all, have to be at a meeting at 9, beans! i have brought myself to the time eater, the world wide web. yeah livejournal post. i never use this anymore. potentially i could read and see what my friends are up to but i don't. here tis.....movies have evolved into stories told by a variety of people instead of ( Read more... )

MENTAL BREAKDOWN QUICKLY APPORACHING. this thing happens every one or two months and i somehow regroup but methought it's scheduled explosion occured a couple of weeks ago. but meknows by the clouds in the sky the meltdown is near. i feel sorry for everyone who has to deal with me now. and boy oh boy how do i suck at work. methinks managers shouldn ( Read more... )

i've always known yet denied it to others that i am a bitch but as it has been months since my last breakdown, yay, it has arrived again and now people see my true colors. i think i have a metophorical jar o' worries. it fills and fills and after a month or two it topples over. i realize how i suck at my job...or rather how i could improve ( Read more... )

when people preach to me about throwing away food and how homeless people would eat it, wasteful, blah blah blah, i agree but at the same time get mad. so wait, do you think i am not appreciative of all that is put before me? do you think that i don't realize thousands of people around the world are starving? i go into defense mode because i worry ( Read more... )

i put truth serum by smog on a mix for my car and it reminds me of a dennis. where oh where might he be? i hope all is well dennis. hugs and ass slaps for the road.

soooooo............i am now a manager and manager in training at both places i work. i open at one store and close at the other. to make a long boring story short..i am tired. i have done the numbers, 54 or so hours scheduled to work this week. i know a chico who works 80, dunno how he does it. and when i do something wrong i dream about it, did i ( Read more... )

the dreary days have stopped along with the growth of my hair. i am at a stand still listening to my own breathing. everyday i go through the motions and with each step i feel heavier. a tiny puncture in my sack let some out but stupidly not thinking about the future i quickly repaired it and kept on walking and kept on adding some more weight. i ( Read more... )

so, i'm getting really old. and i don't know hows i like it. i actually want to do something for my birthday though. want to go to the vid wed night in bloomington. that is my birthday wish. so now alls i need to do is get off work for the end of febrooosy. mi amigo at smashing tomato, my place of work, ernesto, is teaching me spanish. i toadally ( Read more... )