boo
i've always known yet denied it to others that i am a bitch but as it has been months since my last breakdown, yay, it has arrived again and now people see my true colors. i think i have a metophorical jar o' worries. it fills and fills and after a month or two it topples over. i realize how i suck at my job...or rather how i could improve dramatically. and in my fit of fury to do it all........now, i have grown tired and agitated and have failed others. i feel as if things snowballed. i am over reacting but i have reason, which i hate. but, i don't, ahhhh. i am too sensitive about life and as i so always say "fuck me" i don't matter, everyone else does. i am getting in trouble for that and i don't like it. one- because it is what makes me me two- because some people won't let me. when people say i care too much about others i can't comprehend it....is that possible? i don't think so. it's infortunate that they feel that way. whatever. i'm fury-ing away and now can work on my people skills. if everybody doesn't know already, i am socially inept. people need to get this through their heads. i not know how to people relate. pardon moi, s'il vous plait. let's hope this boiling pot evaporates quickly. before someone gets killed from the ricochets.