it makes me cold and wet ( Read more... )

I miss him terribly. To the point where I feel that every step I take is more of a stumble from the top of the stairs. I guess this is what I do when I want to feel something else. I want the warmth that come with a deep ache or infection. The sweet sadness of not eating and hiding under the covers might bring. I really need for a warm body- ( Read more... )

nobody has any clue what the last two days have been like. you can't make that shit up, and its shit that most people will never have to go through once in their lives. My fiance is home safe for the time being and I couldn't be more grateful.

I found this in the back of the Fountainhead. Tell me if this doesn't sound exactly like Noah ( Read more... )

than birth control.

fuck my fucking body.

my vagina is tilted against my back which makes my cramps feel like my spine is being hacked away with a hatchet. It feels like I'm being raped with a rusty steak knife.

I need to stop being so discriminating ( Read more... )

took a wellbutrin and went to work. I can already tell the difference. I'm sleepy and I think I'm going to tell Noah that I need a break. ha aw shit. I LOVE PASSIVE AGGRESSIVE BEHAVIOR ( Read more... )

I hung out with Rosemarie tonight. We talked a lot. I need to start putting things out into the universe again, I've been shut off for too long. I feel like for the most part I need to start taking wellbutrin again. My sole reasoning being that I've become compulsive, lazy, and I wake up grinding my teeth and I don't like where its headed. I need ( Read more... )

nor ask another man to live for mine ( Read more... )

So. I've met the most amazing person I could ever imagine. I love him and I want to be with him. And I'm going to be with him.

Its a lot to bet on. I'm being crazy but I want it. I want it more than anything else.