SO its Xmas eve and I need to work in 2hours and I have not slept yet. HOLY shit

So for awhile I was happy, I relized what happy is. Its not haveing the feeling like being dead is easyer then liveing life.

Its kinda of funny most people say Thanksgiving and x-mas are the worse holidays. The way i feel on halloween is the worse. I just keep telling myself its for the best. Both of us our better off. At some point we have to shut the door, not a day goes by when i don't want to call her (EMO). I have notice that its been worse these past few days. I ( Read more... )

When sitting I often wonder, I always say look at the big picture. What if the big picture can't be seen. The big picture is now not later. The choices we make today only have something to do with the big picture, if make make to tomorrow. I used to live for the moment for that second, but its the big picture. When, Where, Why,and how thats what i ( Read more... )

When sitting I offten wonder, I always say look at the big picture. What if the big picture can't be seen. The big picture is now not later. The choices we make today only have something to do with the big picture, if make make to tomorrow. I used to live for the moment for that second, but its the big picture. When, Where, Why,and how thats what i ( Read more... )

today was a day with nothing in it. I didn't really think about anything just cleared my brain it was nice for the moment. Am sleepy good nite

What a day went to lunch with Niki at Don Poubles in Westland. We talked about her wedding and other shit bestfriends talk about. Off to work from lunch 4pm-1am hell Ruby tuesday. So 11:15 party of 45, party of 12, and loses menus all over. We cook the shit out of that 3cooks and I. Oh yea and today I got all of Emily's last remaining thing from ( Read more... )

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