I am kind of freaking out right now.  At the age 5, I was enrolled in 1st grade, at which time I was swiftly and truly schooled by my classmates.  I was not normal.  Period.  I wasn't allowed to dance to music like I'd always done before, without getting called names and being laughed at.  My teacher gave me a time out for not being able to recite ( Read more... )

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Still attempting, and subsequently failing, to hold my shit together with this flare.  It's beyond anything I've experienced since I began suffering the symptoms of fibro.  I've put a call in to the doctor to let her know I haven't felt much of an improvement from the shot yet, and it's been well over 24 hours since I got it.  Hopefully, she'll ( Read more... )

I've been back home from the doctor for about an hour. I had to go get the results of my liver scan and blood work ( Read more... )

My left arm and shoulder feel like they're ready to fall off my body and on to the floor. I must have hurt it in some way when my car careened into the ditch. Perhaps going to see the doctor, just to make sure I haven't damaged anything and this is just a pulled muscle, may be in order.

If my knee is still the size of a basketball tomorrow, I'm going to the ER. I called my old orthopaedist and he wants $250 up front. Thank you, Dr. Keith, for thinking more about money than your patients! I'll be changing docs as soon as I have money. For now, though, I'll be adding to the healthcare problem by going to the ER and paying ( Read more... )

I feel like I'm being forced to endure it. I don't want to be human. I just want the pain to stop. Taking the legs is becoming more and more of a logical idea on my part. Sure, they'd probably commit me, but at least they'd give me some pain medicine for the self-mutilation. I mean, they do give medicine to those who try to take off their ( Read more... )

I feel like I'm at the end of my rope when it comes to the chronic pain situation. There are times during the day when that's all I can think about, just focusing on that and wishing it would go away. And I know focusing on it only makes it worse, but I can't help myself. The pain gets to be that much ( Read more... )

If I don't got to a doctor soon, I'm going to go an a rampage and lay waste to as much as I can before the cops take me out. I can't stand the pain any longer, I just can't. There's no point to it. They'd rather have someone suffer than have an addict on their hands. Well, fuck that. As an addict, I'm far less dangerous to the public at large ( Read more... )