House hunting
I have been looking for a place to stay for months. All I can find are some rundown one room hovels on the wrong side of the tracks. I pay out tons of money for helath insurance on him and his kids, plus I help pay bills. I do most of the cooking and cleaning (his kids help when they are here) and he still thinks I don't do enough. I went on strike and he used that as an excuse to say he was doing everything anyway. He feeds the kids crap junk food and calls it cooking. I want to leave. I don't want to live here anymore! I can't stand his trying to love up on me and tell me he misses me and loves me one day and screaming and yelling at me to get the fuck out and telling me what a horribal human being I am the next.
He has threatned to get an injunction for me to move out of the house. Baised on what I am not sure. He told me I am not allowed to sleep in the bed. I should sleep on the couch. I can't stand the emotional abuse anymore. I don't know where to go. My house in White Hills is uninhabitable (no air, no water, no water pump, no hot water heater, no gas.) It would take about $2,000 to get it livable. I have about $200. I honestly don't know what to do. I wish he would just let me stay here and disengage. I could just stay out of everyone's way. I will clean up after myself. But he wants me to be the cowed wife who takes care of everyoe and doesn't complain or he wants to find someonw who will (he has said so in so many words)
My self esteem has taken a big hit. I am questioning everything. I don't understand what I am doing wrong. How is asking Kyle if he really has everything done (because he just said he had three things to do 5 minutes ago) being a bitch who is barking orders? I did say it with disbeleif, but I didn't even give him any orders. I say please, thank you, and I'd appreciate it if, and all those things. I have NEVER Yelled at the kids. But he thinks I am evil and mean.
I need to find a place quick!
He has threatned to get an injunction for me to move out of the house. Baised on what I am not sure. He told me I am not allowed to sleep in the bed. I should sleep on the couch. I can't stand the emotional abuse anymore. I don't know where to go. My house in White Hills is uninhabitable (no air, no water, no water pump, no hot water heater, no gas.) It would take about $2,000 to get it livable. I have about $200. I honestly don't know what to do. I wish he would just let me stay here and disengage. I could just stay out of everyone's way. I will clean up after myself. But he wants me to be the cowed wife who takes care of everyoe and doesn't complain or he wants to find someonw who will (he has said so in so many words)
My self esteem has taken a big hit. I am questioning everything. I don't understand what I am doing wrong. How is asking Kyle if he really has everything done (because he just said he had three things to do 5 minutes ago) being a bitch who is barking orders? I did say it with disbeleif, but I didn't even give him any orders. I say please, thank you, and I'd appreciate it if, and all those things. I have NEVER Yelled at the kids. But he thinks I am evil and mean.
I need to find a place quick!