sometimes purpose walks by your side and you never see it until it's standing in front of you
There are few moments in life where I feel like I have purpose. Normally, I bumble through the day and do the best I can...at least on the good days. And on the bad days...well that doesn't really matter, does it? But those purpose driven moments, they're rare...like a diamond in the rough. Today, one of those moments filled me and as always, it erased all the negatives inside me. At work, one of my supervisors started a Boy Scout troop for our clients (the first for mentally disabled adults that we know of) and today was their first meeting. They were all so excited and happy throughout the whole meeting. Everybody seemed to light up for that hour we were there and their behaviors took a backseat to their joy. Because they get to feel like they belong to something they're usually excluded from. It was humbling and beautiful to sit among them as they let joy escape them in a hundred different ways. I feel lucky to be involved in this, to be able to witness their happiness and growth. I think it's going to be a great experience for them. I felt like I was moving with purpose today and like...I feel like God is calling me again. Maybe He's trying to show me something that I've been missing or simply something I've forgotten. Either way, it's good to be moving again instead of dancing around in limbo. Which in itself is another topic entirely. But I'm going to rest that feeling for now, I rather focus on the positive since it's what has primarily been on my mind today.
On an unrelated note, my family and I are going to be moving out of our current trailer Saturday (it's at least 35 years old and has a lot of issues). They're going to bring a new trailer onto the lot and hopefully we'll be in the new place in a week. It'll be nice to have my own room/space again. I've almost forgotten what it's like to have that kind of solitude and peace. It's something I need...to feel at ease with myself and to figure out things/think/be myself.
On an unrelated note, my family and I are going to be moving out of our current trailer Saturday (it's at least 35 years old and has a lot of issues). They're going to bring a new trailer onto the lot and hopefully we'll be in the new place in a week. It'll be nice to have my own room/space again. I've almost forgotten what it's like to have that kind of solitude and peace. It's something I need...to feel at ease with myself and to figure out things/think/be myself.