launch day
i feel like i gave birth tonight. nothing, absolutely nothing compares to creating something and then giving it to the world. i feel whole. better than first love whole. i have worked on this play for so long, put so much of myself in it that it's difficult to know exactly "how it went." the best answer is that it went "well." i'm very pleased with it. i know there are flaws, tiny things that can be fleshed out, but that's for the next iteration of the piece. and it will grow and expand. just that it made my brother tear up a little, and that he got it, despite the flaws, made me believe that there really is something here. it is the culmination of my work here, and my dreams for my past, present, and future. i wish i had made it longer and not sacrificed things so other shows wouldn't be shafted. i shafted myself, in a way. my parents had great comments about things to improve and expand on, and i really appreciate their honesty. that they honestly enjoyed it and got something out of it is enough for me. and the people who matter loved it. there were a few tiny flubs, unfortunately caught on camera for posterity, but overall it worked. i realized that i needed more practice with the ship, but really that couldn't be helped. i also realized how much it needed an audience. there is a reason i am not a director, and that is because i am not a big-picture type person unless i'm writing. otherwise i prefer to be in the action, and in that i feel comfortable. note to self: hold for laughs. i've written a clever script, that, yes, is fast-paced, but doesn't need to be rushed through. i do love it, though. i wish i had had more time to flesh it out. but now that we've broken atmosphere, there is no end to the possibilities for the future.
the stuff that dreams are made of
the stuff that dreams are made of