holding strong but feeling weak
Latest scans came back almost clean. I am assuming that the meds I am on are continuing to do their job. According to the literature they are temporary, who knows? Maybe I will be the exception.
I was diagnosed with iron deficiency anemia last week. More pills for iron and a referral to gastroenterology. Looks like I get to be scoped to rule out internal bleeding. At his rate I am going to run out of clinics in the hospital I haven't visited yet.
Military is moving forward with throwing me out. Looks like I will be medically retired sometime this late summer. Nothing like being basically fired for being sick even though I am still going to work. Makes all those sacrifices really worth it.
I am still so damn tired from the meds. Maybe being unemployed will be worth it for a while. If I can qualify for social security disability it might be enough to keep the bills paid with my retirement but it sucks to think I might have to play the system that way.
What I wouldn't give to take some of this pain from tori. I can handle any pain, stress, fear this is causing. What I can't do is protect tori from it. I am her husband, it is my job to spend my life loving her, protecting her, reminding her every day how incredibly special she is. Oh and reminding her how damn hot she is but that is a different topic.i just want to shield her from all of this, but to do so would mean lying and I won't do that. Ever.
I was diagnosed with iron deficiency anemia last week. More pills for iron and a referral to gastroenterology. Looks like I get to be scoped to rule out internal bleeding. At his rate I am going to run out of clinics in the hospital I haven't visited yet.
Military is moving forward with throwing me out. Looks like I will be medically retired sometime this late summer. Nothing like being basically fired for being sick even though I am still going to work. Makes all those sacrifices really worth it.
I am still so damn tired from the meds. Maybe being unemployed will be worth it for a while. If I can qualify for social security disability it might be enough to keep the bills paid with my retirement but it sucks to think I might have to play the system that way.
What I wouldn't give to take some of this pain from tori. I can handle any pain, stress, fear this is causing. What I can't do is protect tori from it. I am her husband, it is my job to spend my life loving her, protecting her, reminding her every day how incredibly special she is. Oh and reminding her how damn hot she is but that is a different topic.i just want to shield her from all of this, but to do so would mean lying and I won't do that. Ever.