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Hey you guys. Whats up? If your wondering what up with me, then your up for a rough ride.
Well yesterday I was talking to Ben until 12:30 am,yes he is back at school now, and lets just say I cried a lot because a lot came off our chests. He told me that he still loves me and that he still wants to be with me. Hell I want to be with him too and your probably thinking that I need to make up my mind. But its hard because with everything that has gone on my emotions are every where.
Last night Ben asked me how sure I was that I wanted to be with him. i told him 95% sure because yes I do love him, hell i dont think I ever stopped loving him I was just confused on everything, but I didnt want to get hurt or hurt him again. Well after he heard that he understood and then he told me that some time this month after gets something fixed he will ask me back out. What should i say? I'm so confused.
Well other then this i am fine I mean my grades are still coming up my mom isnt mad at me much anymore. oh i found the poem i wanted to tell you so here is it:
Someone else
You say you still love me,
but when I look into your eyes I see someone else.
When you hold me,
you want to hold someone else.
When we are being intimate,
you want someone else.
When you touch me,
you are touching someone else.
So if you actually want to be with me,
then be with me.
Cause when you look at me,
you are looking at someone else.
When you kiss me,
you are kissing someone else.
When you tell me you love me,
you are talking to someone else.
This is how I felt and I still feel this way in a way but hey who knows anymore. I'm going to go I got homework to get done bye.
Well yesterday I was talking to Ben until 12:30 am,yes he is back at school now, and lets just say I cried a lot because a lot came off our chests. He told me that he still loves me and that he still wants to be with me. Hell I want to be with him too and your probably thinking that I need to make up my mind. But its hard because with everything that has gone on my emotions are every where.
Last night Ben asked me how sure I was that I wanted to be with him. i told him 95% sure because yes I do love him, hell i dont think I ever stopped loving him I was just confused on everything, but I didnt want to get hurt or hurt him again. Well after he heard that he understood and then he told me that some time this month after gets something fixed he will ask me back out. What should i say? I'm so confused.
Well other then this i am fine I mean my grades are still coming up my mom isnt mad at me much anymore. oh i found the poem i wanted to tell you so here is it:
Someone else
You say you still love me,
but when I look into your eyes I see someone else.
When you hold me,
you want to hold someone else.
When we are being intimate,
you want someone else.
When you touch me,
you are touching someone else.
So if you actually want to be with me,
then be with me.
Cause when you look at me,
you are looking at someone else.
When you kiss me,
you are kissing someone else.
When you tell me you love me,
you are talking to someone else.
This is how I felt and I still feel this way in a way but hey who knows anymore. I'm going to go I got homework to get done bye.