jerk-ette?
It has been an interesting but pretty eventful week for me. So I was stressed out on Tuesday for two reasons: still repressing emotions and my writing class. Of course my emotions are still running wild, which can make it hard to concentrate but the fact I did my assignment completely wrong pushed me over the edge. We were supposed to summarize a website, but instead, my rough draft was an essay based off the website. So I was mortified to find that I am basically failing because I didn't know what I was doing. Then there is this guy in my class who I think likes me. I just really can't deal with boys right now so I started avoiding him basically. I know it is totally immature but I obviously don't take rejection well and I am not going to reject someone else right now, more emotions I don't want to deal with. So the next few days, I was working on my paper which I think turned out OK (It better since I stayed up till 4am for three nights, which one of them, Brittany totally passed out on my floor after her drunk bowling event. haha).
As my reward for finishing, J.J. let me play DK on his super nintendo! My child hood coming back to me! It was pretty awesome! Then Phi, Xtine and I had planned to go clubbing in SF. Sarahni was supposed to come but she couldn't make it. :( So we, in addition to our DD, Long, headed for SF. I really wanted to let loose, since I was still having trouble with events going on in my life, so I actually took a few shots of barcadi melon before we got in the club. Funny thing was, I didn't feel a thing! Christine was amazed, especially since I didn't really eat dinner too! But the club was a lot of fun in the beginning. Phi was drunk, so she was all grinding up on Long and making out with him, but I think Long felt a little awkward. Meanwhile, Xtine and I were getting a lot of attention, which honestly boosts the ego, which is exactly what I needed. But it was so much fun, because we basically told all the guys that approached us that we were together, my lesbian for the night! :D One guy got too excited that Xtine and I were lovers, but it was a good laugh. Near the end of the night, there were just way too many people, especially guys that kept walking by. And by that time, my legs were starting to give out (the 3' heels did not help!)and being pushed over with oncoming traffic just ruined the mood. So we all left and ended our night at Denny's!
Next day, I tried to read my book for my next paper. But I wasn't feeling it, and just pretty much bummed around/hung out with Brittany. Later that night, she asked what I was up to, and I said reading since that is what I was supposed to be doing. But Brittany and all her CoHo friends invited me to the CoHo toga party. I was hesitant, but why not? So I met all of Brittany's friends again, who are super nice. They helped me with my toga/shirt outfit and then Brittany wanted me to pre-party with her. She knew I attempted to drink the night before so she made me take a double shot. It was so disgusting but I got buzzed/tipsy off of it. I didn't even know too, cuz I was just like, dude, I feel dizzy and Brittany was like "THAT'S it!" and took pride in being there for the first time I ever got tipsy. I really felt like that youtube video, "david after the dentist," "I feel funny!" because I really did! So we went to the party, and I didn't want to drink anymore since I was a little scared from the whole experience. But the CoHo kids definitely know how to party, they were all so nice and totally drunk. Most of Britany's friends were gone, especially Brittany. I barely saw her the whole night, but I was there for her emotional wreck. I guess it happens often, but I usually don't go out anymore so I was unaware of the protocol.
When we were leaving, Brittany seemed upset, so I just asked "hey, you ok?" where she snapped back "NO!" I was really taken off guard and actually a little butt hurt because I was just looking out for her but she apparently doesn't want to be babied. It is the rash and ugly actions like that which make me very conscious about drinking because Brittany is super nice but the alcohol changed her in to someone else. I never want to act like that because it is a horrendous sight to see. Especially with the emotional state that I am in now, it would not be pretty at all. So even though this weekend was fun and full of adventures, I don't know if I am ready to have any more of these experiences anytime soon. Instead, I should read my book and write my paper.
As my reward for finishing, J.J. let me play DK on his super nintendo! My child hood coming back to me! It was pretty awesome! Then Phi, Xtine and I had planned to go clubbing in SF. Sarahni was supposed to come but she couldn't make it. :( So we, in addition to our DD, Long, headed for SF. I really wanted to let loose, since I was still having trouble with events going on in my life, so I actually took a few shots of barcadi melon before we got in the club. Funny thing was, I didn't feel a thing! Christine was amazed, especially since I didn't really eat dinner too! But the club was a lot of fun in the beginning. Phi was drunk, so she was all grinding up on Long and making out with him, but I think Long felt a little awkward. Meanwhile, Xtine and I were getting a lot of attention, which honestly boosts the ego, which is exactly what I needed. But it was so much fun, because we basically told all the guys that approached us that we were together, my lesbian for the night! :D One guy got too excited that Xtine and I were lovers, but it was a good laugh. Near the end of the night, there were just way too many people, especially guys that kept walking by. And by that time, my legs were starting to give out (the 3' heels did not help!)and being pushed over with oncoming traffic just ruined the mood. So we all left and ended our night at Denny's!
Next day, I tried to read my book for my next paper. But I wasn't feeling it, and just pretty much bummed around/hung out with Brittany. Later that night, she asked what I was up to, and I said reading since that is what I was supposed to be doing. But Brittany and all her CoHo friends invited me to the CoHo toga party. I was hesitant, but why not? So I met all of Brittany's friends again, who are super nice. They helped me with my toga/shirt outfit and then Brittany wanted me to pre-party with her. She knew I attempted to drink the night before so she made me take a double shot. It was so disgusting but I got buzzed/tipsy off of it. I didn't even know too, cuz I was just like, dude, I feel dizzy and Brittany was like "THAT'S it!" and took pride in being there for the first time I ever got tipsy. I really felt like that youtube video, "david after the dentist," "I feel funny!" because I really did! So we went to the party, and I didn't want to drink anymore since I was a little scared from the whole experience. But the CoHo kids definitely know how to party, they were all so nice and totally drunk. Most of Britany's friends were gone, especially Brittany. I barely saw her the whole night, but I was there for her emotional wreck. I guess it happens often, but I usually don't go out anymore so I was unaware of the protocol.
When we were leaving, Brittany seemed upset, so I just asked "hey, you ok?" where she snapped back "NO!" I was really taken off guard and actually a little butt hurt because I was just looking out for her but she apparently doesn't want to be babied. It is the rash and ugly actions like that which make me very conscious about drinking because Brittany is super nice but the alcohol changed her in to someone else. I never want to act like that because it is a horrendous sight to see. Especially with the emotional state that I am in now, it would not be pretty at all. So even though this weekend was fun and full of adventures, I don't know if I am ready to have any more of these experiences anytime soon. Instead, I should read my book and write my paper.