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sometimes i just want to drive my car into oncoming traffic.
yes, i know i have problems. at least i can admit that.
in front of people i act as though everything is okay. in fact, sometimes they are. some days are good and life i nice. im not at the point where i can say i love my life, because i still feel like a huge part of me is missing. i dont know how to deal with that because all i want is to have that back but i dont know if i ever will. that thought scares me, bothers me, and tears me apart inside. i was content with my life, then it was turned upside down. it wasnt my choice, and it wasnt something i thought i had to worry about.
and this is what happens when i get completely alone.
yes, i know i have problems. at least i can admit that.
in front of people i act as though everything is okay. in fact, sometimes they are. some days are good and life i nice. im not at the point where i can say i love my life, because i still feel like a huge part of me is missing. i dont know how to deal with that because all i want is to have that back but i dont know if i ever will. that thought scares me, bothers me, and tears me apart inside. i was content with my life, then it was turned upside down. it wasnt my choice, and it wasnt something i thought i had to worry about.
and this is what happens when i get completely alone.