Several things are on my mind ( Read more... )

So I saw that girl today from my LGBT class last quarter. I guess this is her last quarter here. She's TAing a Sophomore Intro Seminar. Gah. She was totally dressed up like a boy too, but it was hot. I'm not usually attracted to girls like that, but I don't know. She's hot like whoa and it would be awesome if we got together. When does all the gay ( Read more... )

Whoa. Sheila is gone. I still don't think it's really hit me yet. Like, she's going to be in Hungary for four months. Holy freaking crap.

I'm too lazy to think/type about anything else that's going on in my life and my head I miss freshman year I think I'm going to miss Berkeley but mostly because of my friends there not even counting Caitlin I'm ( Read more... )

Oh my fucking gawd why the fuck do I have things for the straight girls with issues?

Sometimes I wish I could just make myself feel this way about a guy, like be unable to sleep because I can only think about him or have knots in my stomach. The more I think about it though, the less I think it's going to happen. I'm really freaking gay.

I need something to satiate my gayness. I'm having intense Spashley dreams and I find myself reading all things gay.

It doesn't help that my LGBT History class has like 200 pages every two nights of lesbians and transsexuals and gay men and...just a ton of stuff. Where are all the lesbians at my school?! Jesus christ I swear there's like 10. WTF.

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I just took my last winter quarter final today. It went ok, probably get a B in the class. I leave to go home on Saturday; mother is picking Caitlin and I up. I'm so nervous about grades this quarter. Blah ( Read more... )

Why do I have this endless need to please? Why am I such a fucking puppy?

I feel it starting. I feel like I'm not going to handle it well I'm not handling it well.That was from yesterday I think. Maybe Saturday. Now my whole life is consumed with how I'm about to fail (read: get lower than a B) my E60 class after this final I just took. It was ( Read more... )

I'm gay.

"Why is it that, as a culture, we are more comfortable seeing two men holding guns than holding hands ( Read more... )