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You,
I have to admit that I find my own weaknesses embarrassing. Your smile is so reassuring; the simple act of shared sleep does me so much good. Now I have it together a little bit more, now I can live and breathe with more ease.
My most difficult task recently and my biggest fear: I need people, and I'm scared of that and scared of messing everything up and feeling guilty because I have so little to offer. It's beautiful though because it actually works. Somebody (you) gives me a little love, and I feel better, and I don't need to clutch as hard.
There are so many songs that remind me of you because we have so many memories of just sitting in your room or driving around and listening to music and singing softly (or obnoxiously) to each other. We've gotten to the point where we speak almost entirely in inside jokes or our own stupid/amazing language.
I really wish I could tell you all of this out loud but you know how hard it is to truly express myself. I know sometimes it doesn't feel like I appreciate you but I really do, completely. I love you so much, and I can't thank you enough for helping me get it together.
Love, Nikki
I have to admit that I find my own weaknesses embarrassing. Your smile is so reassuring; the simple act of shared sleep does me so much good. Now I have it together a little bit more, now I can live and breathe with more ease.
My most difficult task recently and my biggest fear: I need people, and I'm scared of that and scared of messing everything up and feeling guilty because I have so little to offer. It's beautiful though because it actually works. Somebody (you) gives me a little love, and I feel better, and I don't need to clutch as hard.
There are so many songs that remind me of you because we have so many memories of just sitting in your room or driving around and listening to music and singing softly (or obnoxiously) to each other. We've gotten to the point where we speak almost entirely in inside jokes or our own stupid/amazing language.
I really wish I could tell you all of this out loud but you know how hard it is to truly express myself. I know sometimes it doesn't feel like I appreciate you but I really do, completely. I love you so much, and I can't thank you enough for helping me get it together.
Love, Nikki