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Just like the last entry left off with, I went over to Jayy's and we spend a few hours sleeping and watching Spirited Away. Even though we didn't do much of anything, it was still a lot of fun.
Afterwards, I went over to Tara's to spend the night as usual and Brandy, one of her other friends was there. She was in a reeeaaalllyyyyy bad mood or SOMETHING because she didn't say more than a few words to Tara and I. So we gave up on trying to cheer her up after a while and just did our own thing.
We did our usual sneaking out routine around 3 in the morning (hah) and went to Mike and Bob's apartment. Mike and Tara stayed inside and cuddled while Bob and I went on the deck and talked. The main object of conversation was my relationship with Jayy, which is no bueno because I know Bob has hidden intentions and.. yeah.. We somehow got on the topic of Jayy's previous relationship (the one with Ashley) and how even though she cheated on him with six other guys that we know of, Jayy still has a hard time saying anything really bad about her.
I mentioned something about how Jayy called me his "everything" and stuff like that, and then Bob told me how Jayy may say that kind of thing but he certainly doesn't act like it... how he doesn't usually take the initiative to talk to me and how whenever I try to open up to him he changes the subject and.. other stuff like that. So I leave kind of depressed with a lot of stuff on my mind.
Tara's friend Robert then took us back to his house where we put on Clerks and I proceeded to fall asleep on his couch. =] Around 6:30 a.m. Tara and I finally get back to her house. She goes in her room with Brandy and I just flopped on her living room couch with my iPod in and went out of my mind. Bob kept texting me telling how much he likes me and how he really wishes that he was the one I was dating and I just really missed Jayy but I still still freaking out about the Ashley thing and ahhhhhhhhhhhh..... yeah, insanity.
I walked home around 12:30 and spent a few hours talking to Jayy on AIM about everything so now I feel better. I just have to keep in mind that he's dating ME now, and he wouldn't be with me if he didn't want to be. Also, I need to remind myself that in reality we HAVEN'T been together a very long time so I need to give things time and a lot of time.
I really wonder how jumbled my brain would be if it wasn't for this journal.
Phew. I still haven't slept yet..
Afterwards, I went over to Tara's to spend the night as usual and Brandy, one of her other friends was there. She was in a reeeaaalllyyyyy bad mood or SOMETHING because she didn't say more than a few words to Tara and I. So we gave up on trying to cheer her up after a while and just did our own thing.
We did our usual sneaking out routine around 3 in the morning (hah) and went to Mike and Bob's apartment. Mike and Tara stayed inside and cuddled while Bob and I went on the deck and talked. The main object of conversation was my relationship with Jayy, which is no bueno because I know Bob has hidden intentions and.. yeah.. We somehow got on the topic of Jayy's previous relationship (the one with Ashley) and how even though she cheated on him with six other guys that we know of, Jayy still has a hard time saying anything really bad about her.
I mentioned something about how Jayy called me his "everything" and stuff like that, and then Bob told me how Jayy may say that kind of thing but he certainly doesn't act like it... how he doesn't usually take the initiative to talk to me and how whenever I try to open up to him he changes the subject and.. other stuff like that. So I leave kind of depressed with a lot of stuff on my mind.
Tara's friend Robert then took us back to his house where we put on Clerks and I proceeded to fall asleep on his couch. =] Around 6:30 a.m. Tara and I finally get back to her house. She goes in her room with Brandy and I just flopped on her living room couch with my iPod in and went out of my mind. Bob kept texting me telling how much he likes me and how he really wishes that he was the one I was dating and I just really missed Jayy but I still still freaking out about the Ashley thing and ahhhhhhhhhhhh..... yeah, insanity.
I walked home around 12:30 and spent a few hours talking to Jayy on AIM about everything so now I feel better. I just have to keep in mind that he's dating ME now, and he wouldn't be with me if he didn't want to be. Also, I need to remind myself that in reality we HAVEN'T been together a very long time so I need to give things time and a lot of time.
I really wonder how jumbled my brain would be if it wasn't for this journal.
Phew. I still haven't slept yet..