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Yesterday was definitely.. interesting..
It started out really good; I went to Jayy's house after he got out of school for a few hours and we spent most of that time just being insane and making each other laugh =) it was nice. Afterwards, I went to Tara's to sleep over there.
Around 1 or 2 in the morning, Tara and I get a call from our boys saying that they're on their way to pick us up so we sneak out to hang out with them for a while. Their friend Bob is with them (who I'm pretty close to.. I met him the night I met Jayy, he liked me, etc) because it was his birthday and he wanted to hang out, so we all head over to Mike's apartment.
As soon as we get there the guys turn on Halo and start playing while Tara and I are just... sitting there. Mike then grabs Tara and leads her to his room for SEXYTIME and I move over to where they were and lay down. Time goes on and I'm STILL getting ignored by Jayy. Drama ish happens between Tara, Mike, and Bob, I'm still being ignored, blahblahblah.
I eventually realize this whole thing is ridiculous (I ended up falling asleep and was woken up once to someone rolling over me, Bob tickling my feet, and yelling) so I go and sit in a corner in the kitchen just.. chilling.
Bob decides to join me and I start freaking out and telling him how Jayy doesn't usually talk to me unless I talk to him first and how I feel super ignored now. He comforts me and EVENTUALLY Jayy comes and talks to me and all is well, he assures me that nothing is my fault and how there isn't anything wrong with me ( I asked him if there was.. wooo I was being dramatic =( ) and.. yeah, all is well!
Later after Tara and I were dropped off, I get texts from Bob and... oh man. He's talking about how wonderful and beautiful (oh god, I would explode with happy if Jayy ever called me beautiful. I get cute a LOT but neverever beautiful) he thinks I am and how he wishes that he was with me instead of Jayy. .. Er, I have no idea what to say so I'm just saying, "Aww, thank you!" over and over.
We somehow got on the topic of how I always seem to hide (whether it be going into a kitchen or blocking myself off emotionally) when things get rough or I get nervous or I'm troubled or WHATEVER and we came to the conclusion that I hide in order to see who is going to find me.
I then realized that there haven't been many people who've even tried to find me. =( Maybe I'm more difficult to deal with than I think I am... which I really should fix. I don't WANT to have to hide all the time. I don't want people to always have to find me... the whole thing is absolutely ridiculous and I have no idea why I do this.
ANYWHO, Bob would most likely be slaughtered alive if Jayy found out that Bob was saying a lot of the things that he did. There was this whole thing about how Jayy's last insane girlfriend told Bob that her and Jayy were on a break when they weren't and she cheated on Jayy. She did this other times with 5 other guys and... yeah, no bueno. Point is, I can't tell Jayy about what's going on so... wooo.
YEAH this is a pretty drama-filled entry but I'm not.. depressed in the least or whatever emotion seems to prevail throughout the entry. I'm fine and everything is going to be great, just... wow, this night was weird.
Whatever, I crave pancakes.
EDIT: SweetComaBlack: do you want to come over and nap with me?
It started out really good; I went to Jayy's house after he got out of school for a few hours and we spent most of that time just being insane and making each other laugh =) it was nice. Afterwards, I went to Tara's to sleep over there.
Around 1 or 2 in the morning, Tara and I get a call from our boys saying that they're on their way to pick us up so we sneak out to hang out with them for a while. Their friend Bob is with them (who I'm pretty close to.. I met him the night I met Jayy, he liked me, etc) because it was his birthday and he wanted to hang out, so we all head over to Mike's apartment.
As soon as we get there the guys turn on Halo and start playing while Tara and I are just... sitting there. Mike then grabs Tara and leads her to his room for SEXYTIME and I move over to where they were and lay down. Time goes on and I'm STILL getting ignored by Jayy. Drama ish happens between Tara, Mike, and Bob, I'm still being ignored, blahblahblah.
I eventually realize this whole thing is ridiculous (I ended up falling asleep and was woken up once to someone rolling over me, Bob tickling my feet, and yelling) so I go and sit in a corner in the kitchen just.. chilling.
Bob decides to join me and I start freaking out and telling him how Jayy doesn't usually talk to me unless I talk to him first and how I feel super ignored now. He comforts me and EVENTUALLY Jayy comes and talks to me and all is well, he assures me that nothing is my fault and how there isn't anything wrong with me ( I asked him if there was.. wooo I was being dramatic =( ) and.. yeah, all is well!
Later after Tara and I were dropped off, I get texts from Bob and... oh man. He's talking about how wonderful and beautiful (oh god, I would explode with happy if Jayy ever called me beautiful. I get cute a LOT but neverever beautiful) he thinks I am and how he wishes that he was with me instead of Jayy. .. Er, I have no idea what to say so I'm just saying, "Aww, thank you!" over and over.
We somehow got on the topic of how I always seem to hide (whether it be going into a kitchen or blocking myself off emotionally) when things get rough or I get nervous or I'm troubled or WHATEVER and we came to the conclusion that I hide in order to see who is going to find me.
I then realized that there haven't been many people who've even tried to find me. =( Maybe I'm more difficult to deal with than I think I am... which I really should fix. I don't WANT to have to hide all the time. I don't want people to always have to find me... the whole thing is absolutely ridiculous and I have no idea why I do this.
ANYWHO, Bob would most likely be slaughtered alive if Jayy found out that Bob was saying a lot of the things that he did. There was this whole thing about how Jayy's last insane girlfriend told Bob that her and Jayy were on a break when they weren't and she cheated on Jayy. She did this other times with 5 other guys and... yeah, no bueno. Point is, I can't tell Jayy about what's going on so... wooo.
YEAH this is a pretty drama-filled entry but I'm not.. depressed in the least or whatever emotion seems to prevail throughout the entry. I'm fine and everything is going to be great, just... wow, this night was weird.
Whatever, I crave pancakes.
EDIT: SweetComaBlack: do you want to come over and nap with me?