you know when a. broke my heart i really felt devestated. and i met new people and it wasn't what i wanted - all along i still wanted him. and now he wants me back and something feels wrong. and i don't know if it's me or what the problem is. but i don't feel untouchable like i did. i don't feel safe or happy like i did ( Read more... )

i haven't been on this fucking thing in so god damn long. where to start and where to end ( Read more... )

the end of the anniversary.

and so, jeff received his bear back. for four years he's been complaining about how the girl still had his friggin stuffed bear. now he has it back.

my birthday is next thursday. i think i am sad about this.

i am in love with a ghost.
he sings me to sleep.
i met him in my dreams.
we are falling apart.

i never dance anymore.

and in the end i believe in love ( Read more... )

i hope to actually want to breath.

[some day i some how forgot how some music actually makes me feel alive again. i remembered just yesterday]

it erks me that we can be so connected and so distant.

i thought about some things today.
fred ... make me your wife and i will consider being a flyers fan - as opposed to nj. but i think it'd be better if i stay a nj fan, because it will give us one thing in our lives to argue about - being as there is nothing else wrong with either of us.

a) twiggy
b) nancy sinatra
c) the new jersey devil

everything is changing. i wasn't ready for a change. i mean not to see every one and every thing change at once.

i feel fearful. i feel stuck.