blinds shut.

[this_time]

i haven't been on this fucking thing in so god damn long. where to start and where to end.
i don't want to talk anymore. i just want to grow up and have my life.
i got pregnant. everything is different now, the way i sleep the way i wake up. the way i view life. ... oh, i killed it. it messes with me regularly. today i held a baby. the most beautiful little girl. i have never felt pain like that in my entire life.

i hope you are all well. i'm just barely here.