I don't know if anyone bothers to look on this thing but me anyway, but I need somewhere to vent out. God, I really need ur strength. I need counsel, direction. Help me to trust you, and not to esteem myself greater than anyone, but to look out not only for my own interests but the interests of others also. I know that the thoughts you have towards ( Read more... )

This summer has gone so fast. I have been home for about 5 wks. and it feels like only yesterday I was getting ready to come home. I have hardly met any of what I wanted to do, but I did accomplish some things. I am gonna miss my family really bad, and I have made some new friends. I am gonna miss them. I really enjoy being with them, but they give ( Read more... )

This Christmas vacation was definitely a character builder. I faced a lot of opposition when I got home. I can’t say I slid into my old ways, but it was definitely painful.  I felt like I well walked into a glass slider door. I saw my old self, but it was a struggle to be the person I know I am in Christ and respond rather than react. I guess I can ( Read more... )

I am not able to share a whole lot at the moment as sit and study starts in 6 min. however I just wanted to give you all an update. I was hit with a major attack on the way home from YS. NO not a physical attack. I am alright, although I don't feel very peachy at the moment, I mean a spiritual attack. I definetly met a side of my fleshy side that ( Read more... )

It's amazing how friendships work. I have barred myself so much from the world, and allowing people to truly know me, and me them, that I never knew what I was missing. I made myself vulnerable, and open, I am learning how to be myself, and even when I get stepped on sometimes, it is worth it. Most of the times, the stupid fights I have are because ( Read more... )

Wow, I had not realized how far off, I have been from journaling, but all the revelations, and the things I have learned, pretty much have already been recorded in the papers for my classes, so eventually, on X-mas break, all the journaling that I need to gather together on this thing, that I have promised to exemplify will finally be added on, Yay ( Read more... )

hmmm. well I don't know exactly how to write what I have been going through. I feel like I having been struggling with my flesh, and I was sharing something I was I was going through with some people in a small group that we were in to pray, and I was saying I know what I desire, and I know what I seem to be acting upon now or struggling with, and ( Read more... )

hey here is a song I finally finished. The words are done, the music on the other hand is always where I get stuck, but eventually I will flow in this too. So here for now, is a poem that will be sung someday. Enjoy ( Read more... )

Wippe. I am coming home for X-mas. Thats right. I am going to Florida. O cozy warm place.. yippety ki aye. So yeah. I am totally excited about that. Spent my entire monday at Lawrence, and at eight went to Windham. I cleaned, and made pretty paper things. So ummm. Yeah it has been a pleasantly simple, and relaxed day. And that is all I have to say ( Read more... )

yeah, so ummmm. God has been doing soooo much in me. God showed me some major strong holds in my life, and stuff that was holding me back. There is so much I am like overwelmed with understanging, and It is gonna take a while to write it all down. It is gonna take me some time to Get it all together and junk. Like OMG I am learning soooo much. Yeah ( Read more... )