A Toe in the River of My New Life
It is an interesting time. I'm getting ready to go to my first travel assignment and wrap up everything I can here to get ready for the move.
It is finally sinking in that my life is going to undergo a major change and I have mixed feelings about it. I have some anxiety about leaving my comfort zone. I am very sad that there so many people I see on a regular basis that I may never see again. This happens with every job change, but at least with Facebook I'll be able to keep in touch better than I ever have before. I'll have to get up at the ass-crack of dawn and have to use an alarm clock for the first time in years. I'm worried that I'll get into some poor sleep patterns. When I had this routine in the past, I would wake up every hour during the night because I was scared to death of sleeping through my alarm.
Since there isn't much to do in Temple I may use the time I'm there to take a class. The company I'm signed up with has tuition assistance, and will pay all my tuition for me to get my bachelor's degree. It seems silly to not do it.
One thing that is sinking in that I am soooooooo excited about is.........living on my own. In my entire adult life I have never been able to afford to live on my own. I was single for a year once back in 1996, but at the end of that year had to find a roommate because I couldn't afford to live alone. Then about three months later I met someone and got into a three-year relationship. After that one ended I planned on staying single for at least a year, but then I met J and 12 years later here I am.
It's like moving out without breaking up. I have this nagging worry in the back of my head that we'll both grow to like it so much that we'll go our separate ways. On the other hand, I think it'll be just enough time apart that it might be better for us. I'll be away just long enough to miss her, then when we're together it'll be time for me to leave just about the time we're getting on each other's nerves.
Best of all I can cook whatever the hell I want whenever I want. I think I'm more excited about this than anything. There are so so so many things I want to cook for myself on a vegan diet that I just can't do because of J not liking the smell that lingers in the house. Most of the time I just don't bother cooking because it's too much trouble. So now I can do whatever I want. I'm interested in seeing how much actual cooking I end up doing, or if I'm using the indoor cooking ban as an excuse not to cook.
Time will tell.
Tomorrow is our last day on the HCG diet. My net loss is 10 pounds. I was up to 14 pounds for a while, but the past few days were intensely stressful and I was stress eating like crazy. Changing jobs and getting ready to move into a new house is not the time to be on an extremely calorie-restricted diet. If my life had a routine - wake up, eat, work, eat, sleep cycle it would be easier. I think anyway. But we're going to give it another go in six weeks. It actually works extremely well. I just need more stability to make it work.
It is finally sinking in that my life is going to undergo a major change and I have mixed feelings about it. I have some anxiety about leaving my comfort zone. I am very sad that there so many people I see on a regular basis that I may never see again. This happens with every job change, but at least with Facebook I'll be able to keep in touch better than I ever have before. I'll have to get up at the ass-crack of dawn and have to use an alarm clock for the first time in years. I'm worried that I'll get into some poor sleep patterns. When I had this routine in the past, I would wake up every hour during the night because I was scared to death of sleeping through my alarm.
Since there isn't much to do in Temple I may use the time I'm there to take a class. The company I'm signed up with has tuition assistance, and will pay all my tuition for me to get my bachelor's degree. It seems silly to not do it.
One thing that is sinking in that I am soooooooo excited about is.........living on my own. In my entire adult life I have never been able to afford to live on my own. I was single for a year once back in 1996, but at the end of that year had to find a roommate because I couldn't afford to live alone. Then about three months later I met someone and got into a three-year relationship. After that one ended I planned on staying single for at least a year, but then I met J and 12 years later here I am.
It's like moving out without breaking up. I have this nagging worry in the back of my head that we'll both grow to like it so much that we'll go our separate ways. On the other hand, I think it'll be just enough time apart that it might be better for us. I'll be away just long enough to miss her, then when we're together it'll be time for me to leave just about the time we're getting on each other's nerves.
Best of all I can cook whatever the hell I want whenever I want. I think I'm more excited about this than anything. There are so so so many things I want to cook for myself on a vegan diet that I just can't do because of J not liking the smell that lingers in the house. Most of the time I just don't bother cooking because it's too much trouble. So now I can do whatever I want. I'm interested in seeing how much actual cooking I end up doing, or if I'm using the indoor cooking ban as an excuse not to cook.
Time will tell.
Tomorrow is our last day on the HCG diet. My net loss is 10 pounds. I was up to 14 pounds for a while, but the past few days were intensely stressful and I was stress eating like crazy. Changing jobs and getting ready to move into a new house is not the time to be on an extremely calorie-restricted diet. If my life had a routine - wake up, eat, work, eat, sleep cycle it would be easier. I think anyway. But we're going to give it another go in six weeks. It actually works extremely well. I just need more stability to make it work.