Comments | thevilagemidiot: Trying to live

thevilagemidiot

Trying to live

Oct 03, 2004 22:15

I've been trying to just go on living my life as normal as possible for these past few weeks but it's just damn near impossible. I'm around those guys a lot at school. And it's not that I have anything against them (if you haven't already heard, Doru and I are fine now...I just have some things I need to talk to him about), but I always hear them ( Read more... )

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llydaw October 3 2004, 21:22:55 UTC

Aww darling :*( I'm sorry. I can really sympathise with you though, even though you might not think so. It's no fun, I know. But you have to be willing to give it time. Granted if it doesn't go away in about six months (yeah, THAT long for patience) then maybe you should consider going back in with them or something.

Set your goals for yourself and starting achieving them. You might have to tear yourself away from them a bit just to ease the pain until you get really strong and confident in yourself. I'm not saying dump them, just ease off a bit.

Anyways, I am always here to talk to. You know my numbers, and you're not afraid to ring 'em ;o) so do so when you feel like you need someone to talk to. I won't rain on your parade.

*tons of hugs and kisses*

&hearts,
Brittany

natnotgnat October 4 2004, 13:41:29 UTC

Hey Tim,

I'm soo sry about this. I think we can all relate 2 u in some way. I luv u kid and if u need 2 talk u got my #'s..

Nat

lizbobiz October 4 2004, 19:01:02 UTC

I'm not trying to be mean or hurtful, but I can't sympathize with you as much this time because it was your decision to leave the band. You're the one that got so fed up that you quit. And now you want to go back? Before they kicked you out last time you were so frustrated with how bad they were treating you. And then when they did kick you out, you missed them so horribly. But when you were back in, you went right back to feeling frustrated with how bad they were treating you. Am I the only one that has noticed this pattern? I am your friend Tim, and I am here for you. But you need to make some real decisions about what you want. If you go back with them, things are more than likely going to be just the way that they were before. And the same shit's just going to happen again. How many times are you willing to put yourself through this?

thevilagemidiot October 4 2004, 20:57:45 UTC

I won't go back unless I know that Doru won't do that anymore. That's why I want to talk to him. I just need him to understand how I feel. I think we both misinterpret a lot of things that each of us say. I quit because I snapped. I was finally tired of how I was being treated. I miss it so much because of all of the good that came out of it and the love of what we were doing. It was one of the biggest parts of my life for 2 years ( ... )

guitarguysrule October 5 2004, 17:25:56 UTC

honestly, i really dont think Doru is going to change, no matter how much you try to talk to him. We both know him. He really only cares about what affects him and nothing else. He is stubborn and selfish. And even if he did see it from your point of view for the time being, it wouldn't last long. at all. I suggest if you're going to talk with him, you sit him down while his head isnt somewhere in the clouds and have a heart to heart talk ( a heart to heart with doru? good luck with that!) But hey, you got nothin to lose, right?

thevilagemidiot October 5 2004, 19:45:29 UTC

That was actually my exact intent right there and you are right. I don't know if he'll listen. I do believe that there is a chance that he might and that he may actually understand what I'm trying to say. No matter how small that chance is, it's still there and that's more than enough for me to try. After all, like you said, I've got nothing to lose.