Trying to live
I've been trying to just go on living my life as normal as possible for these past few weeks but it's just damn near impossible. I'm around those guys a lot at school. And it's not that I have anything against them (if you haven't already heard, Doru and I are fine now...I just have some things I need to talk to him about), but I always hear them talking about the band and it just hurts anytime I hear them saying anything about it because I can't help but miss it so much. And it's not even just overhearing them talk about it. Evan came over earlier tonight and he was talking about some stuff with me for a briefe moment and even that little bit got to me.
I don't know what to do. I want to talk to Doru but at the same time I don't even know if he'll listen to what I have to say and even if he does, I don't even know if he'll understand where I'm coming from. I just wish I could figure it out...
This has got to be the worst feeling I've had in a long time. I feel so empty. Lost. Confused. Angry. Depressed. Weak. Powerless. It's just a horrible combination of feelings and it's eating away at my thoughts and driving me into a dark corner I wish that no one would ever have to be pushed into. I really am trying to just live my life but this whole situation is making it really tough.
Tilling my own grave to keep me level
Jam another dragon down the hole
Digging to the rhythm and the echo of a solitary siren
One that pushes me along and leaves me so
Desperate and Ravenous
I'm so weak and powerless over you
Someone feed the monkey while I dig in search of China
White as Dracula as I approach the bottom
Desperate and Ravenous
I'm so weak and powerless over you
Pale angel go away
Come again some other day
The devil has my ear today
I'll never hear of what you say
Promised I would find a little solace
And some piece of mind
Whatever just as long as I don't feel so
Desperate and Ravenous
I'm so weak and powerless over you
Desperate and Ravenous
I'm so weak and powerless
over you
Lost,
Tim
I don't know what to do. I want to talk to Doru but at the same time I don't even know if he'll listen to what I have to say and even if he does, I don't even know if he'll understand where I'm coming from. I just wish I could figure it out...
This has got to be the worst feeling I've had in a long time. I feel so empty. Lost. Confused. Angry. Depressed. Weak. Powerless. It's just a horrible combination of feelings and it's eating away at my thoughts and driving me into a dark corner I wish that no one would ever have to be pushed into. I really am trying to just live my life but this whole situation is making it really tough.
Tilling my own grave to keep me level
Jam another dragon down the hole
Digging to the rhythm and the echo of a solitary siren
One that pushes me along and leaves me so
Desperate and Ravenous
I'm so weak and powerless over you
Someone feed the monkey while I dig in search of China
White as Dracula as I approach the bottom
Desperate and Ravenous
I'm so weak and powerless over you
Pale angel go away
Come again some other day
The devil has my ear today
I'll never hear of what you say
Promised I would find a little solace
And some piece of mind
Whatever just as long as I don't feel so
Desperate and Ravenous
I'm so weak and powerless over you
Desperate and Ravenous
I'm so weak and powerless
over you
Lost,
Tim