MISUNDERSTOOD
Sorry about the hiatus, there were a lot of issues to be fix at home with the addition of duties and trainings as a newly Registered Nurse. I pretty acknowledge myself as a Novice Nurse and it has been years since I had my duties. I don’t know the latest trend here in Nursing Industry. Allow me to cut of the Nursing issues for now. Gomenasai!
Anyways just vending out some frustrations, my parents’ well I learned the term misunderstood around them. I’ve had the loads of it since I was young but when things got all together it just burst out. They said you have to respect your parents as it was one of the commandments of the Lord. But what can you do when you can help yourself? I’m not saying my parents are not respectable, they are wonderful persons. Just that they sometimes don’t know how to appreciate the things that I do and I don’t.
Mom told me that when you love someone you have to love the bad things about them. That loving someone doesn’t need to change the character of that someone but instead you have to love it. I guess I can see she does love my dad after all. But as for me? I guess it’s pretty tough. No matter how much I tried I can’t understand his attitude. I sometimes think if HE DID LOVE US? But I know the question itself is unfair when I don’t understand him. But with that attitude I sometimes can’t help myself. He sometimes give me the impression of “regretting the life he lived and if possible he doesn’t want to be with us after all”. I’m being unfair and I’m sorry about that.
Yesterday Mom told me that I didn’t care about the people around me? How can that be when I worried about them when they got sick? Did she forgot when I was the one who took care of my brother who had fever for days? She was mad at me for saying “You probably want to bring brother to doctor tomorrow, because I need to go to the dentist”. Imagine this small thing? She said I should have said it other way around like “I need to go to the dentist bring brother to the doctor.”
I was also accused of being spendthrift because I’m insisting of my braces to be removed *after braces you need retainers for your teeth* since the dentist told me it can be removed. When I just told her the price of the retainers the dentist told me. I even told her that if possible it can be removed next year. But she was so mad and she said that I was HOSPITALIZED and she had a lot of bills to pay for this month. I can help to be mad. She is quite unfair.
I know a lot of people will say just express your feelings to your parents Hey not as easy as you think! I know it was never easy but what I mean to say is, when you’re dealing with the close minded people. These issues won’t pass by without war and I’ve had enough for these month okay? Hmmm..
I’d like to think about my dad as being the nagger, over-acting, a little bit of introvert, quite a grumpy one, caring, sometimes a funny guy and can be really thoughtful *well misunderstood*. I wish I can write more positive words than this but oh well. And Mom well wonderful person, really caring but she thinks a lot and have a tendency to over react.
Anyways those who will give a little time to read this well thanks! Just venting out a little frustrations.