So I realize that I'm going to have to take out loans for my masters. Okay, that's fine. But at the moment, the dance studio I go to is crazy expensive and I'm wondering whether I should just be saving my money instead of going? At the same time, though, I realize that I'd probably be more depressed if I have nothing in my life besides work and ( Read more... )

Lots of dance events this weekend... will hopefully get my mind off of everything.

Today was the last day of school for one of my clients. Maybe I'll see him again next year. Another student in his class said "I want Miss Natalie to be MY TSS next year." lol so that was sweet. Hopefully I'll be able to have a position at that school next year. ( Read more... )

Been sleeping my life away lately. Unless I'm at work or at dance or having a session with Lindsay... I'm asleep. At least it seems that way. Or im lounging on my ass half asleep.

I want to say I slept probably like 15 of the past 24 hours.

Saturday night was surprisingly fun. I went to a dance function near Pittsburgh. And since a lot of people ( Read more... )

Spent most of yesterday dancing. The short routine I'm doing next Friday seems like it'll go well. I just have to figure out what to wear now. And I can't wait to learn the Viennese Waltz when I'm at the Bronze III level ( Read more... )

Dance was actually fun today... I was taught how to "be dipped" so the showcase next Friday should be interesting. I wore the heals that I plan on wearing while I perform and I didn't die... so with any luck I'll be alright ( Read more... )

I went to dance 5 out of the 7 days last week... only missing Tuesday and Sunday (and it's not even open Sundays). Weird, since I've been forcing myself to go. Sometimes dance is fun for me, other times it's like exposure therapy for my anxiety. I've been feeling like I just annoy people ... maybe I misread their cues, but that's how I feel ( Read more... )

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I didn't die in my sleep like I was hoping. I felt like complete shit last night, physically, mentally, every way possible so I actually thought I might die. So as I was going to sleep I thought about what I wanted my last thought to be and it was of Jozef and I walking by the river in Batavia one night when there was no one else around and ( Read more... )

Went to the dentist today... no cavities after not flossing nearly at all for a year and half and taking shit care of myself. I was lucky. I always forget how much I like the dentist I go to... he always asks about my plans/school etc and seems to remember/care.

Then I went to dance, there was a Bronze class--- we did the syncopated hustle and then ( Read more... )

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