im not dead!
Still here just came back from an amazing trip to the USA. Just struggling with myself about should I stay here in Japants or to make a change. Money continues to be a problem I don`t understand why I`m struggling even though I have a full time job >< So I guess it depends if things don`t improve soon...I`d like to start teaching dance as some nice extra income and doing more what I love...restaurant gigs would be nice but everywhere I go I get the `you don`t have a big enough name` speech which I think means `why don`t want to pay 10000 man for a dancer`, sucks but I won`t resort to undercutting. Also I`m making my move to wean away from Sadia because that seriously doesn`t help my money or mental situation.
Now I what I want to say is that I had an amazing trip back home. I have two awesome dance experiences, persian and turkish....but I really spoiled myself by going to Artie`s first because while the persian event was informative, it doesn`t compare to Artemis` intensive. The whole environment feels totally different, Artie is different. The dancers there were different (I got a slightly cliquey feel from the dancers around my age at Robyn`s). There`s too much to tell, but I will say one story about what kind of person Artemis is. One day she pulled me aside privately and said, `Today during the lecture, at one point you held a hand and asked very timidly `can I ask a question?` I don`t want to hear that from you again. That is part of your old life and you cannot let it sink back into your new one. Everyone woman here has asked questions, it`s your right, if you continue to act timid and weak people will think they can and will try to take advantage of you. I don`t want that to happen. You have every right to ask a question so don`t act like a scared mouse.` I know it`s a small thing but I got teary after not because I was hurt but I was touched. There`s not many people who look out for you like that, the only other person I have met who is like that is Ozma. Later I thanked her for doing so and said I was touched that she looked out for me to that extent to call me out on such things because not many people would ,she smiled and said `that`s the difference between a teacher and a mentor`. I love Artie >
Now I what I want to say is that I had an amazing trip back home. I have two awesome dance experiences, persian and turkish....but I really spoiled myself by going to Artie`s first because while the persian event was informative, it doesn`t compare to Artemis` intensive. The whole environment feels totally different, Artie is different. The dancers there were different (I got a slightly cliquey feel from the dancers around my age at Robyn`s). There`s too much to tell, but I will say one story about what kind of person Artemis is. One day she pulled me aside privately and said, `Today during the lecture, at one point you held a hand and asked very timidly `can I ask a question?` I don`t want to hear that from you again. That is part of your old life and you cannot let it sink back into your new one. Everyone woman here has asked questions, it`s your right, if you continue to act timid and weak people will think they can and will try to take advantage of you. I don`t want that to happen. You have every right to ask a question so don`t act like a scared mouse.` I know it`s a small thing but I got teary after not because I was hurt but I was touched. There`s not many people who look out for you like that, the only other person I have met who is like that is Ozma. Later I thanked her for doing so and said I was touched that she looked out for me to that extent to call me out on such things because not many people would ,she smiled and said `that`s the difference between a teacher and a mentor`. I love Artie >