Lots of thinky thoughts

[theron09]

Hey guys :)

Well, I've got another day of revising ahead of me but I don't even mind because it'll all be over for a while by lunch time tomorrow! I'm actually still feeling quite confident about this exam which is strange because I'm usually feeling nervous by this point. I don't know, I just feel like this exam is much easier than the one I did

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[ai_kizu]

Hope your exam goes well tomorrow! I have one tomorrow afternoon and then one of Wednesday. Ahhhhh ;_;.

I ship Sam/Dean pre-Stanford. I think that no matter how much he loved Dean he had to get out to try and get the life he wanted. I think he went through complete cut off, pretty much went cold turkey on Dean. He then met Jess so it made it easier on him. I think he kept it a secret. I also think a thing to note about the heaven flashbacks is that they seemed to be when Sam was still young and things he couldn't have with John around like Thanksgiving and a pet. I feel unlike Dean Sam hadn't focused so much on family, but more himself. However, I don't think that makes him selfish because Sam and Dean's relationship is extremely unhealthy.

I have to get back to revision or I'd write more. I've been so out of Sam/Dean pairingness though ;_;.

[theron09]

Thanks :D I hope yours go well, too :D Good luck!

Yeah, I can definitely see where you're coming from. I don't think it was selfish of him to go to Stanford because he had a right to have the life he wanted to have. I just think there whole situation was so messed up and that's what makes it all complicated.

Yes, revise! Sorry for distracting you :D

[ai_kizu]

This turned long, and some parts may be inaccurate due to lack of watching eps

[theron09]

Yeah, John's role is really important - I like him but I think that if he had been less stubborn then Sam could have gone to Stanford and stayed in touch. But then, I get that he just wanted to protect his sons and he couldn't keep watch over Sam the whole time if he went away.

I think Sam realised it when he was a bit older too, and I'd definitely wondered about whether Zachariah had messed around with their Heaven (the whole thing with Mary in that episode always made me think that.)

How did your exam go today?

[ai_kizu]

Yeah, I mean you see it in "The Song Remains the Same" where young John is shocked at what older John did. I guess it got to a level of over protectiveness that differed with Sam and Dean. Sam got it less directly and didn't quite understand it the same way as Dean.

Yeah, I think in hindsight Sam understands, but living in the moment is different.

Badly. I'm terrible at study and exams.

[theron09]

Yeah, that all makes sense. I think the fact that Sam was just a baby when Mary died has an affect on it too because he didn't witness the imediate fall-out/grief that Dean did.

Aww, I'm sorry to hear that it didn't go so well - I hope your next one goes better (that's tomorrow, right?)

[ai_kizu]

Yep it's tomorrow, ahhhhhhhhh. I'll be done by lunchtime though!