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Today was Candace's memorial. Shortly after school in the park where she died. I went and held onto Nick's hand for dear life. It wasn't easy for him to go back there. Today was his first day back at school. He's was nervous as hell about going back. He wants to quit all his afterschool stuff that may keep him out after dark. I understand that thought, but am trying to convince him that he needs to keep doing the normal things. Staying at home, not keeping busy is the best way to drive your self crazy with memories and what if's. I know I have become a huge hypocrit. I don't care. I love him. I don't want him to end up like me. Dammit I'm not gonna let that happen, not to Nick.
Last night I went to his house. He needed to see me. I sat and talk with him for a long time. He told me about his dreams. He dreamt that I was attacked by a vampire as Josh was watching and laughing as I was killed. I really hope I was able to cover. Cause him dreaming that is eerie. It's so close to what happened. I told him it was just a dream and that I was there, nothing bad had happened to me. I don't think I will ever be able to tell him what happened the other night. It would scare him and he would hate me for breaking my promise. Now is not the time to talk about it.
Im going to go to Cristofff and Eva's. They have been trying to get a hold of me and there was message saying Cristoff had made me another charm. I need to go pick it up.
Last night I went to his house. He needed to see me. I sat and talk with him for a long time. He told me about his dreams. He dreamt that I was attacked by a vampire as Josh was watching and laughing as I was killed. I really hope I was able to cover. Cause him dreaming that is eerie. It's so close to what happened. I told him it was just a dream and that I was there, nothing bad had happened to me. I don't think I will ever be able to tell him what happened the other night. It would scare him and he would hate me for breaking my promise. Now is not the time to talk about it.
Im going to go to Cristofff and Eva's. They have been trying to get a hold of me and there was message saying Cristoff had made me another charm. I need to go pick it up.